Roderick on the Line

00:00:00 ◼   ► hello hi John [TS]

00:00:08 ◼   ► Merlin how are you I'm fine young man [TS]

00:00:14 ◼   ► John uh-huh [TS]

00:00:18 ◼   ► and oh that sounds it sounded like a [TS]

00:00:24 ◼   ► meditation thing I'm just sitting here [TS]

00:00:26 ◼   ► meditating meditating on how create life [TS]

00:00:30 ◼   ► is and how good I have it boy had a bad [TS]

00:00:34 ◼   ► morning every every minute of a day is [TS]

00:00:38 ◼   ► just a blessing [TS]

00:00:39 ◼   ► I'm dressed already I'm not naked for [TS]

00:00:43 ◼   ► this podcast that I've had coffee [TS]

00:00:47 ◼   ► I just feel so blessed you know life [TS]

00:00:50 ◼   ► life is a present that we give ourselves [TS]

00:00:52 ◼   ► life as a president that we give [TS]

00:00:55 ◼   ► ourselves who andrew johnson doesn't get [TS]

00:00:58 ◼   ► the credit he deserves if you know what [TS]

00:01:00 ◼   ► I mean I feel like you know my my my [TS]

00:01:03 ◼   ► general feeling that the world is going [TS]

00:01:05 ◼   ► to hell and that is largely a product of [TS]

00:01:08 ◼   ► the fact that we have made it [TS]

00:01:09 ◼   ► unfashionable to punch people in the [TS]

00:01:11 ◼   ► nose [TS]

00:01:13 ◼   ► it's it's just not accurate and what I [TS]

00:01:16 ◼   ► really need to feel is that every day is [TS]

00:01:18 ◼   ► a blessing that you know what that is [TS]

00:01:20 ◼   ► really refreshing [TS]

00:01:23 ◼   ► Wow nicely with the working Susan polish [TS]

00:01:26 ◼   ► Schultz hmm so she polished Schultz's no [TS]

00:01:32 ◼   ► no John she doesn't she writes a she I [TS]

00:01:35 ◼   ► think she had quite a run in the [TS]

00:01:36 ◼   ► seventies and eighties writing those [TS]

00:01:38 ◼   ► greeting cards will like watercolors on [TS]

00:01:42 ◼   ► the front [TS]

00:01:42 ◼   ► oh I got all I am i received a great [TS]

00:01:46 ◼   ► many of those you know my mom is someone [TS]

00:01:50 ◼   ► who expresses herself through greeting [TS]

00:01:54 ◼   ► parents so hard to believe so I it is [TS]

00:01:59 ◼   ► it's very out of character but i have a [TS]

00:02:01 ◼   ► greeting card from her not a greeting [TS]

00:02:03 ◼   ► card but a birthday card from her for [TS]

00:02:05 ◼   ► every year just using precisely greeting [TS]

00:02:07 ◼   ► you not not greeting me except like [TS]

00:02:10 ◼   ► greeting each new day with a with a [TS]

00:02:13 ◼   ► with a an aphorism but you know they [TS]

00:02:18 ◼   ► would he would be there so that there [TS]

00:02:19 ◼   ► would be a card with a sunset on it and [TS]

00:02:21 ◼   ► there were there would usually be some [TS]

00:02:23 ◼   ► kind of onion paper in front of the [TS]

00:02:25 ◼   ► paper of the card right so that at first [TS]

00:02:28 ◼   ► you look at the card it's like kind of [TS]

00:02:29 ◼   ► threw a gauze and then you put the onion [TS]

00:02:32 ◼   ► paper and there's the sentiments written [TS]

00:02:34 ◼   ► in cursive last night it also had to be [TS]

00:02:37 ◼   ► protected from from a caustic world [TS]

00:02:39 ◼   ► yeah or or uh that it is that it isn't [TS]

00:02:43 ◼   ► an excerpt an apocryphal from the Bible [TS]

00:02:45 ◼   ► some kind of middle portion of the Bible [TS]

00:02:48 ◼   ► that but that got taken out like [TS]

00:02:52 ◼   ► somebody with white cotton gloves to [TS]

00:02:53 ◼   ► take it out of a hermetically seal tape [TS]

00:02:55 ◼   ► out of each Bible each Bible which is [TS]

00:02:57 ◼   ► the unary word of god and then there's [TS]

00:03:00 ◼   ► this thing that says you're the best son [TS]

00:03:03 ◼   ► Oh mom could ever want to have open it [TS]

00:03:07 ◼   ► up inside and then it's also another [TS]

00:03:10 ◼   ► thing that I psyche but no incited [TS]

00:03:13 ◼   ► furthers that thought we have someone [TS]

00:03:15 ◼   ► and then my mom would sign it can [TS]

00:03:19 ◼   ► sometimes sometimes she would echo the [TS]

00:03:20 ◼   ► sentiment by saying you're a good son [TS]

00:03:24 ◼   ► how do you really believe that I think [TS]

00:03:27 ◼   ► she did you know moms have moms have [TS]

00:03:29 ◼   ► certain blinders where they think that [TS]

00:03:32 ◼   ► they're there they're terrible child [TS]

00:03:34 ◼   ► who's a force of pure destruction in the [TS]

00:03:37 ◼   ► world is actually a nice boy [TS]

00:03:39 ◼   ► I don't open an old wound but it's a lot [TS]

00:03:40 ◼   ► like a pitbull problem maybe they may [TS]

00:03:42 ◼   ► just be remembering the days that she [TS]

00:03:44 ◼   ► didn't tear each other apart [TS]

00:03:45 ◼   ► not that they do that but I understand [TS]

00:03:49 ◼   ► she thanked me on my 30th birthday for [TS]

00:03:51 ◼   ► for having survived i wanna see now [TS]

00:03:54 ◼   ► that's really sweet but it was inside it [TS]

00:03:56 ◼   ► was very emotional moment and it's like [TS]

00:03:58 ◼   ► thanks thanks but well no she said you [TS]

00:04:02 ◼   ► know from the time you were 15 until now [TS]

00:04:03 ◼   ► I every time the phone rang at night I [TS]

00:04:05 ◼   ► was sure that they were calling to say [TS]

00:04:07 ◼   ► that you were dead [TS]

00:04:08 ◼   ► oh my gosh that's a that's a real mixed [TS]

00:04:10 ◼   ► kind of feeling huh [TS]

00:04:12 ◼   ► so anyway now that you're 30 I can't [TS]

00:04:14 ◼   ► believe it [TS]

00:04:15 ◼   ► and congratulations and I'm really glad [TS]

00:04:17 ◼   ► and i was like oh god I'm I'm I'm sorry [TS]

00:04:21 ◼   ► that I made you feel up 15 years that's [TS]

00:04:25 ◼   ► I guess you wouldn't say [TS]

00:04:26 ◼   ► like passive-aggressive because it [TS]

00:04:27 ◼   ► doesn't seem like your mom style but no [TS]

00:04:29 ◼   ► no not at all no she was teaching [TS]

00:04:32 ◼   ► sincere she's being sincere he was [TS]

00:04:33 ◼   ► explaining to me a very various like not [TS]

00:04:36 ◼   ► just sincere but like a massive truth [TS]

00:04:38 ◼   ► that at that continues to settle on my [TS]

00:04:41 ◼   ► shoulders which is that in order for her [TS]

00:04:43 ◼   ► in order to survive herself she had to [TS]

00:04:46 ◼   ► in newer herself against the possibility [TS]

00:04:48 ◼   ► that I might die at any time [TS]

00:04:51 ◼   ► oh god that psychologically that was a [TS]

00:04:55 ◼   ► lot of work and a lot of heartbreak to [TS]

00:04:58 ◼   ► to say I think what she said was I loved [TS]

00:05:05 ◼   ► the years i had with you [TS]

00:05:07 ◼   ► whoo-hoo so knowing that you were [TS]

00:05:10 ◼   ► certain to die i had to be happy with [TS]

00:05:14 ◼   ► the the great times that we had my gosh [TS]

00:05:17 ◼   ► she's trying she's trying to make it [TS]

00:05:19 ◼   ► through those years where I was when I [TS]

00:05:22 ◼   ► was having all those high adventures [TS]

00:05:23 ◼   ► that people think we're so I make me [TS]

00:05:26 ◼   ► such an interesting person i would say [TS]

00:05:27 ◼   ► that but you you're definitely a handful [TS]

00:05:29 ◼   ► right your animal for a while [TS]

00:05:31 ◼   ► in fact not a handful and a handful is [TS]

00:05:34 ◼   ► what you say about about a puppy that [TS]

00:05:36 ◼   ► pees on the rug [TS]

00:05:37 ◼   ► I was a pistol i was known a pistol is [TS]

00:05:42 ◼   ► what you say about a little old lady who [TS]

00:05:44 ◼   ► wears red cowboy boots haha I what you [TS]

00:05:48 ◼   ► quite a ballplayer [TS]

00:05:49 ◼   ► it was a homicidal maniac [TS]

00:05:53 ◼   ► uh-huh which is not which is not [TS]

00:05:56 ◼   ► something that you that that's not [TS]

00:05:57 ◼   ► something you would say about a puppy [TS]

00:05:58 ◼   ► that's not something that you'd said I'm [TS]

00:06:00 ◼   ► old lady unless of course she was a [TS]

00:06:02 ◼   ► homicidal maniac [TS]

00:06:03 ◼   ► well I is dominated by made it out [TS]

00:06:07 ◼   ► well let me I'm so glad he isn't it is a [TS]

00:06:10 ◼   ► blessing in it it's it's a present that [TS]

00:06:11 ◼   ► you put on your own tree i'm going to [TS]

00:06:13 ◼   ► read you something i don't know this is [TS]

00:06:15 ◼   ► discovered by fairies but i'd like to [TS]

00:06:17 ◼   ► read you one of the works of season [TS]

00:06:18 ◼   ► polish also if you don't mind is this [TS]

00:06:20 ◼   ► this is going to be some situation where [TS]

00:06:22 ◼   ► we get accused of plagiarism and then we [TS]

00:06:24 ◼   ► have to explain that now i am repeating [TS]

00:06:25 ◼   ► it I'm achieving its actually lipstick [TS]

00:06:27 ◼   ► on that picture and so it's now a new [TS]

00:06:30 ◼   ► work you know what i think i might be [TS]

00:06:32 ◼   ► seen her name wrong it shuts which is [TS]

00:06:34 ◼   ► not the german for something ships is [TS]

00:06:36 ◼   ► german force it [TS]

00:06:37 ◼   ► Susan policy it [TS]

00:06:39 ◼   ► essentially command to a doggy should [TS]

00:06:42 ◼   ► should know shoot shoot shoot [TS]

00:06:46 ◼   ► shush as in as in the shootin fest and [TS]

00:06:49 ◼   ► yes it's a shoot shoot in China huh no [TS]

00:06:52 ◼   ► wonder what is it I don't know sit [TS]

00:06:54 ◼   ► actually sit in Germany's sits in a city [TS]

00:06:57 ◼   ► like Darth Vader how do you say thats it [TS]

00:06:59 ◼   ► then slices fifth is written as Seth is [TS]

00:07:02 ◼   ► part of an international intergalactic [TS]

00:07:04 ◼   ► space language and it's translated the [TS]

00:07:07 ◼   ► same earth like you know I had a [TS]

00:07:08 ◼   ► professor in college who after years [TS]

00:07:11 ◼   ► later that's a good place to have a [TS]

00:07:12 ◼   ► professor if you're going to have became [TS]

00:07:14 ◼   ► one of the perhaps the pre eminent [TS]

00:07:16 ◼   ► scholar of the Klingon language my [TS]

00:07:23 ◼   ► esteem for your university education [TS]

00:07:25 ◼   ► just went through the roof i took his [TS]

00:07:27 ◼   ► mnemonics class [TS]

00:07:28 ◼   ► ah here's the thing and it's very [TS]

00:07:31 ◼   ► difficult to teach people things I think [TS]

00:07:33 ◼   ► it's very difficult to teach people [TS]

00:07:34 ◼   ► poetry or plasma it's very difficult to [TS]

00:07:38 ◼   ► teach people things now that we can't [TS]

00:07:39 ◼   ► use branding iron key thousand was a [TS]

00:07:44 ◼   ► muted Bell I don't want to go two nights [TS]

00:07:46 ◼   ► let me just finish this off button let [TS]

00:07:49 ◼   ► me finish this let me Fake here's the [TS]

00:07:51 ◼   ► thing is difficult you know sometimes [TS]

00:07:53 ◼   ► you have to teach people something based [TS]

00:07:55 ◼   ► on teaching them what it is not or [TS]

00:07:57 ◼   ► should not be em and I you know and [TS]

00:07:59 ◼   ► that's our that's some mighty jump girls [TS]

00:08:02 ◼   ► what's safe touches [TS]

00:08:03 ◼   ► ok so anyway you can review on safe to [TS]

00:08:05 ◼   ► Richard you go [TS]

00:08:07 ◼   ► it has a wonderful book on version of [TS]

00:08:09 ◼   ► Richard Hugo know I know but in his book [TS]

00:08:11 ◼   ► on versus actually what is it real West [TS]

00:08:14 ◼   ► marginal way that's biography i forget [TS]

00:08:15 ◼   ► the name of the bar talking about bird [TS]

00:08:18 ◼   ► by bird are you there was one person i [TS]

00:08:23 ◼   ► was i don't think was my professor I [TS]

00:08:24 ◼   ► think he was quoting someone but for [TS]

00:08:26 ◼   ► example this is a great piece of advice [TS]

00:08:27 ◼   ► for anybody [TS]

00:08:29 ◼   ► you're not eat you you should just avoid [TS]

00:08:32 ◼   ► the word love and I think there's one [TS]

00:08:35 ◼   ► rule [TS]

00:08:36 ◼   ► I'm trying to remember exactly what the [TS]

00:08:37 ◼   ► rules but it's something along the lines [TS]

00:08:39 ◼   ► of you're not allowed to use love as a [TS]

00:08:43 ◼   ► transitive verb for the first nine years [TS]

00:08:45 ◼   ► your poem something like that you know [TS]

00:08:46 ◼   ► what I've been saying that to every girl [TS]

00:08:47 ◼   ► I've dated since 1986 [TS]

00:08:49 ◼   ► here to you know what you are your [TS]

00:08:51 ◼   ► poetry teacher this is earlier this is [TS]

00:08:53 ◼   ► some first this is a verse from Susan [TS]

00:08:55 ◼   ► polished it's called i love you so much [TS]

00:08:58 ◼   ► it's it's the kind of thing I've been [TS]

00:09:00 ◼   ► trying to find a way to say to you I [TS]

00:09:02 ◼   ► don't see someone i'm so glad you've [TS]

00:09:04 ◼   ► made it to 40 something and I'm really [TS]

00:09:05 ◼   ► I'm really glad like to read you a short [TS]

00:09:07 ◼   ► bit of verse called love you so much [TS]

00:09:09 ◼   ► they are you ready and really i'm going [TS]

00:09:11 ◼   ► to draw you something I'm gonna paint [TS]

00:09:13 ◼   ► you something in watercolors and centre [TS]

00:09:14 ◼   ► st with tissue on it i love you are you [TS]

00:09:16 ◼   ► are you going to pronounce the word love [TS]

00:09:18 ◼   ► with a w instead of an l it's also very [TS]

00:09:20 ◼   ► important to have what's called [TS]

00:09:20 ◼   ► metaphysical distance which is you can [TS]

00:09:22 ◼   ► be too matchy-matchy you can't be too [TS]

00:09:24 ◼   ► close with things like the title right [TS]

00:09:26 ◼   ► thank you and I have a lot of [TS]

00:09:27 ◼   ► metaphysical distance working here right [TS]

00:09:29 ◼   ► now I just this is always pressure he [TS]

00:09:30 ◼   ► talks about is called love you so much [TS]

00:09:32 ◼   ► since I met you I've been so happy [TS]

00:09:34 ◼   ► except that i find myself worrying all [TS]

00:09:37 ◼   ► the time [TS]

00:09:37 ◼   ► Oh worrying that i might disappoint you [TS]

00:09:40 ◼   ► worrying that relationship might and [TS]

00:09:42 ◼   ► worrying that you might not be happy [TS]

00:09:44 ◼   ► worrying that something might happen to [TS]

00:09:46 ◼   ► you [TS]

00:09:46 ◼   ► I guess I've fallen in love with you and [TS]

00:09:49 ◼   ► I guess I worry so much because I co [TS]

00:09:51 ◼   ► care so much about it like God fan [TS]

00:09:57 ◼   ► well fuck you i love you so much [TS]

00:10:01 ◼   ► sit populace shit fucked up all my ever [TS]

00:10:06 ◼   ► heard it surprise you to learn a lot [TS]

00:10:09 ◼   ► early so much i watch you breathe while [TS]

00:10:11 ◼   ► you're sleeping and I think maybe about [TS]

00:10:14 ◼   ► smother you [TS]

00:10:16 ◼   ► sometimes when I think about how much i [TS]

00:10:18 ◼   ► love you I watched you sleep and you [TS]

00:10:21 ◼   ► look like a baby when it would it [TS]

00:10:23 ◼   ► surprise you to learn that she has a lot [TS]

00:10:25 ◼   ► of these i would not surprise me at all [TS]

00:10:28 ◼   ► that because if you don't mind I think [TS]

00:10:30 ◼   ► this is covered by fair use if you don't [TS]

00:10:31 ◼   ► mind I would like to read you a short [TS]

00:10:33 ◼   ► piece of verse by susan polished it's [TS]

00:10:35 ◼   ► called thoughts of you it would not [TS]

00:10:37 ◼   ► surprise me to learn that she had that [TS]

00:10:40 ◼   ► she had a lot of dead rubber dolls [TS]

00:10:43 ◼   ► straight back to this is a time it's [TS]

00:10:47 ◼   ► five and waiting for years i'm so glad [TS]

00:10:48 ◼   ► you made it to something 40 and so I [TS]

00:10:50 ◼   ► want to send this is my shoot Susan [TS]

00:10:52 ◼   ► polished it's not me it's called [TS]

00:10:54 ◼   ► thoughts of you in the morning when the [TS]

00:10:55 ◼   ► sign it's just starting to like the day [TS]

00:10:58 ◼   ► I'm awaken [TS]

00:11:00 ◼   ► my first slots are you at night I stare [TS]

00:11:05 ◼   ► at the dark trees silhouetted against [TS]

00:11:08 ◼   ► the quiet stars i'm in trance into a [TS]

00:11:10 ◼   ► complete peacefulness and my less so [TS]

00:11:12 ◼   ► it's a review [TS]

00:11:13 ◼   ► haha here's the thing if you imagine [TS]

00:11:17 ◼   ► this being a 50 year old woman was [TS]

00:11:19 ◼   ► drinking tea it's really super sweet [TS]

00:11:22 ◼   ► especially if it's her husband is sick [TS]

00:11:23 ◼   ► or something right [TS]

00:11:24 ◼   ► this would be so sweet imagine this [TS]

00:11:26 ◼   ► being a 32 year old man who's cleaning a [TS]

00:11:28 ◼   ► gun for human thoughts of you don't even [TS]

00:11:33 ◼   ► want a year old woman who is drinking [TS]

00:11:35 ◼   ► gym [TS]

00:11:36 ◼   ► yeah you know like they're there and [TS]

00:11:39 ◼   ► really even a 50 woman who's drinking [TS]

00:11:40 ◼   ► tea i don't i don't want anyone to think [TS]

00:11:43 ◼   ► of me as their last thought of the day [TS]

00:11:45 ◼   ► and then their first thought of the next [TS]

00:11:46 ◼   ► day thanks to John I gotta tell you [TS]

00:11:48 ◼   ► somebody i think that i think if you're [TS]

00:11:50 ◼   ► 62 if you're 14 that is completely [TS]

00:11:54 ◼   ► understandable because you're still 11 [TS]

00:11:55 ◼   ► years from having the middle part of [TS]

00:11:57 ◼   ► your brain finish forming right you [TS]

00:11:59 ◼   ► remember how painful that was brutally [TS]

00:12:01 ◼   ► painful and it's totally understandable [TS]

00:12:02 ◼   ► and infuse the world just when you were [TS]

00:12:04 ◼   ► 14 if you wrote this when you were 32 [TS]

00:12:07 ◼   ► year-old lone gunman or more you wrote [TS]

00:12:09 ◼   ► this when you're out buying a used white [TS]

00:12:11 ◼   ► van and I'm just telling you this is [TS]

00:12:13 ◼   ► this is not right but if you wrote that [TS]

00:12:15 ◼   ► when you were a 26 year old girl like [TS]

00:12:18 ◼   ► who is beautiful in the flower dress and [TS]

00:12:21 ◼   ► writing a vintage bicycle with flowers [TS]

00:12:24 ◼   ► in the basket who I would love to get a [TS]

00:12:27 ◼   ► poem from that girl if you if you wrote [TS]

00:12:30 ◼   ► that even as that girl there is still [TS]

00:12:32 ◼   ► something wrong with you there's no time [TS]

00:12:34 ◼   ► after you are about 14 years old that [TS]

00:12:37 ◼   ► that amount of obsession about another [TS]

00:12:39 ◼   ► person [TS]

00:12:39 ◼   ► ok let's let's let's stipulate this is a [TS]

00:12:41 ◼   ► little bit like going after Rod McKuen [TS]

00:12:43 ◼   ► we are we are shooting fish in a lovely [TS]

00:12:45 ◼   ► flower barrel here well but and is also [TS]

00:12:48 ◼   ► super creepy but also I'm I I recognize [TS]

00:12:51 ◼   ► my I recognize that there are people who [TS]

00:12:54 ◼   ► fall in love with one another and they [TS]

00:12:55 ◼   ► call each other four times a day for the [TS]

00:12:57 ◼   ► rest of their lives and they are happy [TS]

00:13:00 ◼   ► and the rest of the world is just a [TS]

00:13:03 ◼   ► backdrop to the play that they are [TS]

00:13:05 ◼   ► writing for and about one another who [TS]

00:13:07 ◼   ► but i cannot identify with that [TS]

00:13:09 ◼   ► personally [TS]

00:13:10 ◼   ► we think alike human clone and Jessica [TS]

00:13:12 ◼   ► Tandy [TS]

00:13:13 ◼   ► I doubt that they called each other four [TS]

00:13:15 ◼   ► times a day [TS]

00:13:16 ◼   ► no that's their jobs yeah I bet you that [TS]

00:13:18 ◼   ► they high-fived on their way out the [TS]

00:13:20 ◼   ► door in the morning [TS]

00:13:21 ◼   ► yeah and then at night they SAT around [TS]

00:13:23 ◼   ► and he played the piano and she told [TS]

00:13:26 ◼   ► Reinbold stories and there were 45 you [TS]

00:13:30 ◼   ► know a cary grant was there and they had [TS]

00:13:32 ◼   ► like maybe like martinis or five friends [TS]

00:13:34 ◼   ► they had martinis and then you know they [TS]

00:13:36 ◼   ► went off to sleep in separate bedrooms [TS]

00:13:38 ◼   ► because that's what people did then this [TS]

00:13:40 ◼   ► is phrase you use and I want to get the [TS]

00:13:42 ◼   ► exact quote screaming in your head the [TS]

00:13:44 ◼   ► screaming in one's head there's a part [TS]

00:13:46 ◼   ► of me that I don't want to sound cynical [TS]

00:13:48 ◼   ► John as you know I never want to come [TS]

00:13:49 ◼   ► off cynical as are you certainly don't [TS]

00:13:51 ◼   ► thank you there's a part of me that [TS]

00:13:52 ◼   ► thinks if you're calling anybody four [TS]

00:13:54 ◼   ► times a day in my piece that's cute [TS]

00:13:56 ◼   ► don't want to hear the screaming in your [TS]

00:13:58 ◼   ► head that's exactly right hand and the [TS]

00:13:59 ◼   ► and you know the devil dogs are nipping [TS]

00:14:02 ◼   ► at your heels and who rather than keep [TS]

00:14:05 ◼   ► running [TS]

00:14:06 ◼   ► yeah for that 10 minutes you need to [TS]

00:14:08 ◼   ► gossip but your breath [TS]

00:14:10 ◼   ► how's your day how's it going over there [TS]

00:14:12 ◼   ► oh good oh I'm just sitting here just [TS]

00:14:13 ◼   ► thinking of you [TS]

00:14:14 ◼   ► oh yeah i mean when i was when i felt [TS]

00:14:18 ◼   ► that way about somebody I felt that way [TS]

00:14:19 ◼   ► about Lori basler in 1980 that's a [TS]

00:14:22 ◼   ► crushable name and I bought her a i went [TS]

00:14:27 ◼   ► to the store valentine's day because we [TS]

00:14:30 ◼   ► were required then even then we were [TS]

00:14:32 ◼   ► required to buy Valentines for all of [TS]

00:14:34 ◼   ► our classmates now you in retrospect [TS]

00:14:37 ◼   ► that must drive you crazy [TS]

00:14:39 ◼   ► oh it was it was awful there were some [TS]

00:14:40 ◼   ► of my classmates who did not deserve a [TS]

00:14:42 ◼   ► Valentine from and I did not want from [TS]

00:14:45 ◼   ► them if they deserve anything it was not [TS]

00:14:47 ◼   ► a Valentine it was it was another it's [TS]

00:14:50 ◼   ► probably a strongly worded note from [TS]

00:14:52 ◼   ► your mother with what they deserve for [TS]

00:14:54 ◼   ► me was an empty space where Valentine [TS]

00:14:55 ◼   ► would be but I a willful empty space [TS]

00:14:59 ◼   ► that what this this is a deliberately [TS]

00:15:01 ◼   ► black intentionally blank valentine this [TS]

00:15:03 ◼   ► space intentionally blank i went to the [TS]

00:15:06 ◼   ► store and I bought the one gross of [TS]

00:15:09 ◼   ► cheap Valentine's for all my classmates [TS]

00:15:11 ◼   ► that I was gonna sit and go like happy [TS]

00:15:14 ◼   ► valentines day John happy valentines day [TS]

00:15:16 ◼   ► John happy Americans John but i was so [TS]

00:15:20 ◼   ► crazy about Larry Bosler that i spent [TS]

00:15:23 ◼   ► what was at the time [TS]

00:15:25 ◼   ► a large portion of my pile of quarters [TS]

00:15:29 ◼   ► that I used to sit and pour over my head [TS]

00:15:31 ◼   ► in my bed with the door closed I took a [TS]

00:15:35 ◼   ► lot of the quarters that I keep in jars [TS]

00:15:37 ◼   ► kept in jars and i bought Lori bachelor [TS]

00:15:41 ◼   ► huge box of chocolates a giant red [TS]

00:15:44 ◼   ► heart-shaped box of chocolates and I [TS]

00:15:47 ◼   ► took it to school on valentine's day and [TS]

00:15:49 ◼   ► everybody exchange their little paper [TS]

00:15:51 ◼   ► Valentine's and I got a little paper [TS]

00:15:54 ◼   ► Valentine from Laura Bassett said happy [TS]

00:15:57 ◼   ► valentines day lori and i was ashamed [TS]

00:16:01 ◼   ► and I did not give her the box of [TS]

00:16:03 ◼   ► chocolates John and every day from [TS]

00:16:07 ◼   ► februari 14th until the last day of [TS]

00:16:10 ◼   ► school on jun 20th i open my locker and [TS]

00:16:14 ◼   ► there was that big red box of chocolates [TS]

00:16:16 ◼   ► and I looked at it and I said today's [TS]

00:16:19 ◼   ► the day I'm going to give the box of [TS]

00:16:20 ◼   ► chocolates to Lori basler and I never [TS]

00:16:23 ◼   ► did and on the last day of school my dad [TS]

00:16:26 ◼   ► came to help me clean out my locker and [TS]

00:16:29 ◼   ► he said he opened the locker he was like [TS]

00:16:31 ◼   ► looking at a big box of chocolates and [TS]

00:16:34 ◼   ► he grabbed me 80 a problem soft oh my [TS]

00:16:43 ◼   ► guys on it [TS]

00:16:44 ◼   ► I'm very close to tears that's horrible [TS]

00:16:46 ◼   ► did you get harder as you get a hard-on [TS]

00:16:49 ◼   ► the eye and I want as a lorry lorry lor [TS]

00:16:52 ◼   ► I did she touch Lori's the kind of game [TS]

00:16:54 ◼   ► where you put a heart on the I l.a you [TS]

00:16:57 ◼   ► rie oh my god that's a cute name Laurie [TS]

00:17:01 ◼   ► basler did she tell him did you tell him [TS]

00:17:03 ◼   ► what he was eating know i was i was [TS]

00:17:07 ◼   ► covered in shame he was like why do you [TS]

00:17:08 ◼   ► have this big box of chocolates here [TS]

00:17:10 ◼   ► that's a great thing what I have a happy [TS]

00:17:12 ◼   ► day they put it on the seat in the front [TS]

00:17:14 ◼   ► we put it on the front seat of our [TS]

00:17:16 ◼   ► chrysler newport imperial and you're [TS]

00:17:20 ◼   ► hurt [TS]

00:17:20 ◼   ► we drove home from school with my with [TS]

00:17:22 ◼   ► all my papers in a plastic bag in the [TS]

00:17:26 ◼   ► backseat and he was sitting and eating [TS]

00:17:27 ◼   ► all the good chocolates out of it and [TS]

00:17:29 ◼   ► saying like how this summer's gonna be [TS]

00:17:31 ◼   ► great you're gonna go to tennis camp [TS]

00:17:32 ◼   ► john Dunn well that's a good fucking [TS]

00:17:35 ◼   ► love poem right there [TS]

00:17:37 ◼   ► well and then to make matters worse then [TS]

00:17:40 ◼   ► she died of leukemia no way I'm afraid [TS]

00:17:47 ◼   ► son you're in a TV movie afraid you and [TS]

00:17:50 ◼   ► they will you are your fucking water [TS]

00:17:52 ◼   ► you're fucking robby benson shit John [TS]

00:17:55 ◼   ► that's the worst that's right champ wake [TS]

00:17:58 ◼   ► up champ what's up champ [TS]

00:18:00 ◼   ► Old Yeller gonna take him out back he [TS]

00:18:03 ◼   ► sees foamy that's all I'm so sorry [TS]

00:18:05 ◼   ► that's not funny [TS]

00:18:06 ◼   ► well no it's not but I mean obviously [TS]

00:18:07 ◼   ► know many years later but I never did [TS]

00:18:10 ◼   ► ever ever tell lori basler how I felt [TS]

00:18:14 ◼   ► about her and how I felt about her was [TS]

00:18:16 ◼   ► that I woke up every morning and was [TS]

00:18:17 ◼   ► thinking about and i went to bed every [TS]

00:18:18 ◼   ► night was thinking about it's so weird [TS]

00:18:20 ◼   ► it's thick and in retrospect then when [TS]

00:18:23 ◼   ► it always said and done it's probably [TS]

00:18:25 ◼   ► just as well that you did not give her [TS]

00:18:27 ◼   ► Susan polish it's a poem called be my [TS]

00:18:29 ◼   ► valentine which which which ends the [TS]

00:18:32 ◼   ► city to read that like I have committed [TS]

00:18:35 ◼   ► to memory so I think it's kind of like [TS]

00:18:36 ◼   ► four areas [TS]

00:18:37 ◼   ► yeah let's see if I remember it says [TS]

00:18:39 ◼   ► assistance to the scanning lets you [TS]

00:18:40 ◼   ► remember I ok so it ends like this have [TS]

00:18:42 ◼   ► fun with me and whatever we do work with [TS]

00:18:45 ◼   ► me towards common goals dance with me to [TS]

00:18:48 ◼   ► the rhythm of our love [TS]

00:18:49 ◼   ► walk with me throughout life let us hug [TS]

00:18:51 ◼   ► each other at every step in our journey [TS]

00:18:53 ◼   ► forever in love [TS]

00:18:54 ◼   ► do you know how sad would have been if [TS]

00:18:56 ◼   ► you gave that to her on some candy [TS]

00:18:58 ◼   ► well dance with me to the rhythm of our [TS]

00:19:00 ◼   ► love hey sounds suspiciously like a rod [TS]

00:19:04 ◼   ► stewart lyric but followed by i was [TS]

00:19:08 ◼   ► listening to read that last night and he [TS]

00:19:09 ◼   ► has American in his song where he says [TS]

00:19:11 ◼   ► spread your wings and take me in em and [TS]

00:19:15 ◼   ► I think he's talking about vaginal wings [TS]

00:19:18 ◼   ► vaginal wings [TS]

00:19:20 ◼   ► I think he's talking about labia [TS]

00:19:21 ◼   ► bobbya1984 me to the rhythm of our love [TS]

00:19:31 ◼   ► when you say it it sounds good [TS]

00:19:33 ◼   ► you know that's a thing that i might say [TS]

00:19:34 ◼   ► to a stand-up bass that's something I [TS]

00:19:37 ◼   ► might as I'm as I wrapping my arms [TS]

00:19:39 ◼   ► around a large states guitar bass milan [TS]

00:19:42 ◼   ► knew who I might say dance with me to [TS]

00:19:44 ◼   ► the river [TS]

00:19:45 ◼   ► love can i don't wanna I don't make it [TS]

00:19:47 ◼   ► too weird but when you think of when you [TS]

00:19:50 ◼   ► think of the rhythm of your love I mean [TS]

00:19:52 ◼   ► is there anything that isn't potentially [TS]

00:19:55 ◼   ► is another thing I learned in poetry [TS]

00:19:58 ◼   ► classes you know to be careful about [TS]

00:20:00 ◼   ► saying something that could be [TS]

00:20:01 ◼   ► interpreted more than one way because [TS]

00:20:04 ◼   ► you don't know wrong wrong wrong and [TS]

00:20:06 ◼   ► saying everything in a poem wants to be [TS]

00:20:08 ◼   ► interpreted multiple ways yes but it has [TS]

00:20:10 ◼   ► to have kind of concrete image there has [TS]

00:20:12 ◼   ► to be there has to be something concrete [TS]

00:20:14 ◼   ► about it and if it's open to [TS]

00:20:15 ◼   ► interpretation i think that's ok but you [TS]

00:20:17 ◼   ► don't want to write a bunch of holes [TS]

00:20:18 ◼   ► like a whole thing of ellipses you know [TS]

00:20:20 ◼   ► what I mean yeah right and i think [TS]

00:20:22 ◼   ► that's it so is she talking about [TS]

00:20:23 ◼   ► fucking yeah she's gonna be clear them [TS]

00:20:26 ◼   ► of our level the hell is that I don't [TS]

00:20:27 ◼   ► think I my boy is now your heart going [TS]

00:20:30 ◼   ► from putting my heart going something I [TS]

00:20:32 ◼   ► don't beat the sense that i don't like [TS]

00:20:34 ◼   ► beets in the ground John but like once [TS]

00:20:35 ◼   ► again what if you got that on a card [TS]

00:20:36 ◼   ► from the 32 year old guy I know [TS]

00:20:39 ◼   ► dance with me to the rules like what if [TS]

00:20:40 ◼   ► what if what if you Travis Travis Bickle [TS]

00:20:42 ◼   ► type situation and you taking time off [TS]

00:20:44 ◼   ► from the campaign and you've gone out on [TS]

00:20:45 ◼   ► a date to get to a dirty dirty movie [TS]

00:20:47 ◼   ► theater and then you give you a poem [TS]

00:20:48 ◼   ► like that [TS]

00:20:49 ◼   ► mmm well it's just like the scene in the [TS]

00:20:51 ◼   ► graduate why did he take her to that [TS]

00:20:52 ◼   ► strip bar holy she's learned his hands [TS]

00:20:54 ◼   ► little bit of his love [TS]

00:20:56 ◼   ► holy shit you remember Travis Bickle [TS]

00:20:58 ◼   ► love greeting cards to remember that who [TS]

00:21:01 ◼   ► you know one time I was sitting in the [TS]

00:21:04 ◼   ► bath in a house that I lived in with [TS]

00:21:05 ◼   ► some people who had lots of piercings [TS]

00:21:09 ◼   ► and those giant ear plugs that they make [TS]

00:21:14 ◼   ► out of sink stoppers who this is a long [TS]

00:21:17 ◼   ► time ago when that was still very [TS]

00:21:18 ◼   ► transgressive and I was sitting in the [TS]

00:21:21 ◼   ► city in the bathtub and somebody was [TS]

00:21:23 ◼   ► doing a little laundry and the washing [TS]

00:21:25 ◼   ► machine was one at the bottom of the the [TS]

00:21:29 ◼   ► bottom it in the other room i could hear [TS]

00:21:31 ◼   ► through the floor sitting in the [TS]

00:21:33 ◼   ► bathroom and I i might have been i might [TS]

00:21:35 ◼   ► have been very stoned but so the bath i [TS]

00:21:37 ◼   ► was going to them with them with them [TS]

00:21:39 ◼   ► thump and Men overhead there's a there's [TS]

00:21:43 ◼   ► a jet airplane and the jet airplane is [TS]

00:21:46 ◼   ► like [TS]

00:21:48 ◼   ► because it because the jet engine noises [TS]

00:21:50 ◼   ► is a cord right there's there's multiple [TS]

00:21:53 ◼   ► sounds it makes it makes record the jets [TS]

00:21:56 ◼   ► flying over and all of a sudden the cord [TS]

00:21:59 ◼   ► of the the jet is making syncs up with [TS]

00:22:02 ◼   ► the thumb of them the top of the washing [TS]

00:22:04 ◼   ► machine and it makes this fantastic [TS]

00:22:07 ◼   ► music and i'm writing between them not [TS]

00:22:12 ◼   ► right in between them i'm closer to the [TS]

00:22:13 ◼   ► to the washing machine that i am to the [TS]

00:22:15 ◼   ► jet but i am the only I'm the only [TS]

00:22:19 ◼   ► organism the only thing in the world [TS]

00:22:21 ◼   ► except for maybe a termite that [TS]

00:22:24 ◼   ► perceives this this this moment of of [TS]

00:22:28 ◼   ► like natural music being made and I'm [TS]

00:22:32 ◼   ► lying there in the bathtub and I'm like [TS]

00:22:33 ◼   ► I am the i am the meat of this sandwich [TS]

00:22:36 ◼   ► i am the i am the the receptor I'm yet [TS]

00:22:40 ◼   ► you're like the only one there to hear [TS]

00:22:41 ◼   ► it [TS]

00:22:42 ◼   ► a tree fell in the forest and I was the [TS]

00:22:44 ◼   ► only one there boom and and I felt like [TS]

00:22:48 ◼   ► in a sense that was dancing with the [TS]

00:22:53 ◼   ► rhythm of the world's love boo because [TS]

00:22:57 ◼   ► that's happening right now to somebody [TS]

00:22:59 ◼   ► you know what I mean somewhere in the [TS]

00:23:00 ◼   ► world right now in Indonesia there's a [TS]

00:23:02 ◼   ► guy sitting in a room and and and it's [TS]

00:23:06 ◼   ► like it's like in the movie delicatessen [TS]

00:23:08 ◼   ► there's somebody but the fucking on a [TS]

00:23:10 ◼   ► bed next door and somebody else is [TS]

00:23:13 ◼   ► sharpening a knife over here and he [TS]

00:23:15 ◼   ► hears the song here's the music it'll [TS]

00:23:17 ◼   ► come no one else hears the music that's [TS]

00:23:21 ◼   ► what we're talking about [TS]

00:23:22 ◼   ► she's usually so much better at this [TS]

00:23:25 ◼   ► john i don't know i don't know what you [TS]

00:23:26 ◼   ► get for money these days but I think [TS]

00:23:27 ◼   ► maybe it's not a greeting card but I [TS]

00:23:29 ◼   ► think you should definitely have some [TS]

00:23:30 ◼   ► anonymous notes to people you have a lot [TS]

00:23:33 ◼   ► of shots and best understands this music [TS]

00:23:35 ◼   ► in a way that that the rest of us can [TS]

00:23:38 ◼   ► only do you think she might be hearing a [TS]

00:23:40 ◼   ► jet that isn't even flying over our [TS]

00:23:41 ◼   ► heads right now it's a cracked i'm [TS]

00:23:42 ◼   ► guessing listening to a little bit of [TS]

00:23:44 ◼   ► the pros that you've decided that she is [TS]

00:23:46 ◼   ► operating at a level of acuity she's in [TS]

00:23:49 ◼   ► tune and she's gonna tune right in on [TS]

00:23:53 ◼   ► you [TS]

00:23:53 ◼   ► mm no I'm saying I do i do the car [TS]

00:23:57 ◼   ► overheated I called up and pleaded [TS]

00:24:00 ◼   ► there's help on the way I called you [TS]

00:24:01 ◼   ► collect you didn't accept you had [TS]

00:24:03 ◼   ► nothing to say some guys have all the [TS]

00:24:05 ◼   ► luck [TS]

00:24:05 ◼   ► yeah some guys on the brakes all the [TS]

00:24:07 ◼   ► breaks yeah [TS]

00:24:09 ◼   ► then where the gold hat if that moves [TS]

00:24:11 ◼   ► sir if you can bounce high bounce for [TS]

00:24:13 ◼   ► her to tell she cries lover will have it [TS]

00:24:15 ◼   ► by bouncing lover i must have units [TS]

00:24:18 ◼   ► late-september and I really should be [TS]

00:24:19 ◼   ► back at school I think that I shall [TS]

00:24:23 ◼   ► never see a poem lovely as a tree that [TS]

00:24:27 ◼   ► are like the morning sun really shows [TS]

00:24:31 ◼   ► your age doesn't have the morning sun [TS]

00:24:33 ◼   ► when it's in your face really shows your [TS]

00:24:36 ◼   ► that's not where I mean honey in my mind [TS]

00:24:38 ◼   ► and in my eyes you're everything [TS]

00:24:40 ◼   ► yeah that's sweet that would be really [TS]

00:24:41 ◼   ► sweet to say somebody you look cold in [TS]

00:24:43 ◼   ► the morning you know what you key in [TS]

00:24:44 ◼   ► this in the sixties and early seventies [TS]

00:24:46 ◼   ► I think you could still say that to your [TS]

00:24:47 ◼   ► mrs. Robinson food your mrs. Robinson [TS]

00:24:51 ◼   ► it's like talking about the Holocaust [TS]

00:24:52 ◼   ► you get out of the way well you know but [TS]

00:24:54 ◼   ► back then like a woman in her forties [TS]

00:24:56 ◼   ► felt like she was in her forties you [TS]

00:24:59 ◼   ► know what I mean like the morning sun [TS]

00:25:01 ◼   ► when it's in your face it really shows [TS]

00:25:03 ◼   ► your age and she's like I know I'm just [TS]

00:25:04 ◼   ► let somebody sees my face in the morning [TS]

00:25:05 ◼   ► but that don't matter that don't bother [TS]

00:25:08 ◼   ► me now don't worry nice nowhere in my [TS]

00:25:10 ◼   ► eyes you're everything and you know [TS]

00:25:11 ◼   ► that's a turnaround whereas now a woman [TS]

00:25:14 ◼   ► in her forties in my experience at least [TS]

00:25:16 ◼   ► refuses to admit she's in her forties [TS]

00:25:18 ◼   ► for the most part and if you make any [TS]

00:25:20 ◼   ► comment about her face in the morning [TS]

00:25:22 ◼   ► sun she's way ahead of you [TS]

00:25:24 ◼   ► you know what I mean like all your face [TS]

00:25:26 ◼   ► in the morning and she's like stop right [TS]

00:25:27 ◼   ► there that's another conversation you [TS]

00:25:29 ◼   ► just can't have [TS]

00:25:30 ◼   ► that's right and you know what i was [TS]

00:25:32 ◼   ► going to say that in my eyes you're [TS]

00:25:34 ◼   ► everything that she's like no no no [TS]

00:25:36 ◼   ► that's not what you're going to say shut [TS]

00:25:39 ◼   ► up two dozen got this is this is another [TS]

00:25:42 ◼   ► one of those things where there's words [TS]

00:25:44 ◼   ► there's bad words right it's off the [TS]

00:25:45 ◼   ► table [TS]

00:25:46 ◼   ► that's right badly and yes a your face [TS]

00:25:52 ◼   ► basically you don't see your face and [TS]

00:25:54 ◼   ► Morning Sun to a woman who's older than [TS]

00:25:58 ◼   ► yeah it sounds like a plan or one-on-one [TS]

00:25:59 ◼   ► and get some Sun in your face [TS]

00:26:02 ◼   ► yeah you just don't say you don't see [TS]

00:26:04 ◼   ► your face in the Sun because the all it [TS]

00:26:07 ◼   ► sounds like she's got like a damaged [TS]

00:26:08 ◼   ► damaged skin right or you know like I [TS]

00:26:11 ◼   ► can see you know she does [TS]

00:26:13 ◼   ► want to hear i can see every cigarette [TS]

00:26:15 ◼   ► you ever smoked God don't talk to mikey [TS]

00:26:18 ◼   ► has found it time [TS]

00:26:20 ◼   ► don't talk to me first thing in the [TS]

00:26:21 ◼   ► morning is what you know I wake up and I [TS]

00:26:23 ◼   ► say bring the first thought I had this [TS]

00:26:25 ◼   ► morning was you your face in the morning [TS]

00:26:28 ◼   ► sun and and i found a dime [TS]

00:26:31 ◼   ► it is a crack made by all the cigarettes [TS]

00:26:34 ◼   ► you smoke [TS]

00:26:35 ◼   ► yeah I I'm sorry to seem obsessed with [TS]

00:26:40 ◼   ► this is just like I could keep turning [TS]

00:26:41 ◼   ► this over in my head I keep turning it [TS]

00:26:43 ◼   ► over turning it over and and I i just-i [TS]

00:26:46 ◼   ► can't-- really land on anywhere where [TS]

00:26:47 ◼   ► I'm super comfortable about it [TS]

00:26:49 ◼   ► yeah but this is not remember this jon [TS]

00:26:51 ◼   ► is she had a whole section to shoot the [TS]

00:26:53 ◼   ► chutes and choices poems she had her own [TS]

00:26:55 ◼   ► section [TS]

00:26:56 ◼   ► how would I remember that you even go to [TS]

00:27:00 ◼   ► greeting cards course as a kid I went to [TS]

00:27:03 ◼   ► greeting card stores being pulled by a [TS]

00:27:07 ◼   ► team of horses and I and I managed to [TS]

00:27:09 ◼   ► stop myself at the front door [TS]

00:27:11 ◼   ► no I didn't go to greeting card stores i [TS]

00:27:12 ◼   ► wouldn't go i did I never I never looked [TS]

00:27:14 ◼   ► at a single self-help book my entire [TS]

00:27:16 ◼   ► life there were whole sections of the [TS]

00:27:18 ◼   ► bookstore that I stayed away from you [TS]

00:27:20 ◼   ► just over military history not just [TS]

00:27:23 ◼   ► military history but all kinds of [TS]

00:27:24 ◼   ► history but also know all the exciting [TS]

00:27:27 ◼   ► there are so many exciting parts of of a [TS]

00:27:28 ◼   ► bookstore why would you go [TS]

00:27:30 ◼   ► yeah to a section where people were [TS]

00:27:32 ◼   ► trying to tell you that they were [TS]

00:27:33 ◼   ► thinking about you you will we will [TS]

00:27:34 ◼   ► never want to learn how to make [TS]

00:27:35 ◼   ► intercourse never go over the inner core [TS]

00:27:38 ◼   ► section I was very embarrassed to read [TS]

00:27:42 ◼   ► about how to have sex you wouldn't just [TS]

00:27:45 ◼   ► take it and carry it over to the tsr [TS]

00:27:47 ◼   ► book section and we know that the [TS]

00:27:48 ◼   ► dungeon master Scott I felt like a lot [TS]

00:27:51 ◼   ► of things and this is part of the [TS]

00:27:52 ◼   ► problem of being a romantic being born [TS]

00:27:55 ◼   ► romantic is that I felt and then and [TS]

00:27:58 ◼   ► this is a problem in the arts to where [TS]

00:28:00 ◼   ► you feel like if you're going to be good [TS]

00:28:02 ◼   ► at something you should just discover it [TS]

00:28:04 ◼   ► true you should not you should not [TS]

00:28:07 ◼   ► pollute your experience by by learning [TS]

00:28:12 ◼   ► about something before you're actually [TS]

00:28:13 ◼   ► trying to do it you know what I mean [TS]

00:28:14 ◼   ► like to go read about how to have sex [TS]

00:28:17 ◼   ► after you've tried to have sex a few [TS]

00:28:19 ◼   ► times that makes sense to me like me [TS]

00:28:21 ◼   ► ok I've done this now a few times and I [TS]

00:28:23 ◼   ► want to [TS]

00:28:24 ◼   ► figure out what doctors don't subscribe [TS]

00:28:27 ◼   ► to that [TS]

00:28:29 ◼   ► well no but you know every doctor then I [TS]

00:28:30 ◼   ► know knew when they were 14 years old [TS]

00:28:32 ◼   ► that they wanted to be a doctor [TS]

00:28:33 ◼   ► that's because they're psychotic well [TS]

00:28:35 ◼   ► exactly now when I was for a terrible HD [TS]

00:28:37 ◼   ► decide you want to help people [TS]

00:28:38 ◼   ► I didn't even know what I wanted to do [TS]

00:28:40 ◼   ► is that afternoon and all of my friends [TS]

00:28:42 ◼   ► that ended up being doctors were already [TS]

00:28:44 ◼   ► like I'm gonna be a doctor but you guys [TS]

00:28:46 ◼   ► are attending classes you got take [TS]

00:28:47 ◼   ► biology you know I know and that [TS]

00:28:49 ◼   ► terrifies me every time I go see a [TS]

00:28:51 ◼   ► doctor [TS]

00:28:51 ◼   ► I look at them and I realized you've [TS]

00:28:53 ◼   ► been doing this since you were 14 you [TS]

00:28:55 ◼   ► have no other experience of the world [TS]

00:28:56 ◼   ► famous you are terrifying me now a few [TS]

00:29:00 ◼   ► things are going to hire a really good [TS]

00:29:01 ◼   ► soldier of fortune [TS]

00:29:02 ◼   ► you know you're gonna go and you're [TS]

00:29:03 ◼   ► gonna hire that you know that if that [TS]

00:29:05 ◼   ► person is really good at their job [TS]

00:29:06 ◼   ► they've seen this seen some shit they've [TS]

00:29:09 ◼   ► been in the shipmates and decisions that [TS]

00:29:10 ◼   ► they definitely the shit they made some [TS]

00:29:11 ◼   ► decisions early on about where they're [TS]

00:29:13 ◼   ► going to focus their attention [TS]

00:29:14 ◼   ► yeah just down that the sites of our [TS]

00:29:16 ◼   ► rifle probably when I was a when I was a [TS]

00:29:19 ◼   ► young man I spent a lot of time in [TS]

00:29:21 ◼   ► hospitals being treated by student [TS]

00:29:23 ◼   ► doctors because I didn't have them [TS]

00:29:26 ◼   ► I didn't have any insurance as a hobby [TS]

00:29:28 ◼   ► no I didn't want me to get treated by a [TS]

00:29:30 ◼   ► regular doctor and so I would go to the [TS]

00:29:32 ◼   ► i would go to the university hospital [TS]

00:29:34 ◼   ► and they would say yeah sure we'll take [TS]

00:29:36 ◼   ► a look at your problem but there's going [TS]

00:29:37 ◼   ► to be nine of us and every every one of [TS]

00:29:40 ◼   ► the students whose whose incidentally [TS]

00:29:42 ◼   ► your age there are each one of them is [TS]

00:29:45 ◼   ► going to take a take a turn poking your [TS]

00:29:48 ◼   ► liver and that's how you [TS]

00:29:50 ◼   ► that's how you get free medical care you [TS]

00:29:52 ◼   ► shouldn't have John if I could say if i [TS]

00:29:53 ◼   ► visit the time I think they should have [TS]

00:29:54 ◼   ► anybody poking liver nine times in a day [TS]

00:29:57 ◼   ► well so I'm lying on a gurney and it may [TS]

00:30:00 ◼   ► file and their the medical students and [TS]

00:30:03 ◼   ► each one of them takes it takes a turn [TS]

00:30:04 ◼   ► poking at me with the you-know-what [TS]

00:30:07 ◼   ► there for cept and and I would sit there [TS]

00:30:11 ◼   ► you know and and try and make light of [TS]

00:30:14 ◼   ► the situation haha hey here we all are [TS]

00:30:16 ◼   ► only one of us is covered in blood [TS]

00:30:19 ◼   ► though and and then I would then they [TS]

00:30:23 ◼   ► would you know give me some not [TS]

00:30:25 ◼   ► effective treatment and and I would limp [TS]

00:30:28 ◼   ► out of there but I saw a lot of young [TS]

00:30:31 ◼   ► doctors a lot of student doctors in that [TS]

00:30:33 ◼   ► time with their put their wide do we [TS]

00:30:36 ◼   ► eyes [TS]

00:30:37 ◼   ► and they're there you know that their [TS]

00:30:41 ◼   ► sense that they were going to one day [TS]

00:30:42 ◼   ► have a jet ski that's in their faces you [TS]

00:30:45 ◼   ► know what I mean you look at her like [TS]

00:30:46 ◼   ► they're like they're thinking porsche [TS]

00:30:48 ◼   ► you know you're thinking so much about [TS]

00:30:49 ◼   ► personalized license plate your [TS]

00:30:51 ◼   ► residence your kind of hours they work [TS]

00:30:53 ◼   ► on purpose if they did it's like it is [TS]

00:30:55 ◼   ► it's like being with earlier me they [TS]

00:30:56 ◼   ► deliberately it's part of the the the [TS]

00:30:59 ◼   ► hazing that affects all of our [TS]

00:31:01 ◼   ► healthcare that they have to work [TS]

00:31:02 ◼   ► ridiculous numbers of hours [TS]

00:31:04 ◼   ► yeah to weed out the weak to weed out [TS]

00:31:06 ◼   ► the ones that don't deserve a portion [TS]

00:31:07 ◼   ► with a personalized license plate to eat [TS]

00:31:09 ◼   ► yet says dr. feelgood to weed out the [TS]

00:31:11 ◼   ► ones who would take take one step back [TS]

00:31:13 ◼   ► and go this is not good for people this [TS]

00:31:15 ◼   ► yummy that portion or to you to weed out [TS]

00:31:18 ◼   ► the ones that are like is there is there [TS]

00:31:21 ◼   ► something else I should be doing like [TS]

00:31:22 ◼   ► like like swimming in the Mediterranean [TS]

00:31:25 ◼   ► right now or I don't know maybe maybe [TS]

00:31:28 ◼   ► like this guy lying on the gurney maybe [TS]

00:31:30 ◼   ► I should be drinking myself insensible [TS]

00:31:31 ◼   ► every night getting in fistfights but no [TS]

00:31:35 ◼   ► instead I'm you know I'm reading about [TS]

00:31:36 ◼   ► the anterior cruciate ligament dreaming [TS]

00:31:41 ◼   ► of that Porsche that's gonna make this [TS]

00:31:43 ◼   ► all makes sense to me [TS]

00:31:44 ◼   ► imagine the guy who did the first time [TS]

00:31:45 ◼   ► John surgery can imagine how much that [TS]

00:31:47 ◼   ► guy made who did the first Tommy is the [TS]

00:31:51 ◼   ► ACL isn't the first thing is that you [TS]

00:31:53 ◼   ► talk about the is the yeah remember [TS]

00:31:54 ◼   ► Tommy John the picture he was the first [TS]

00:31:57 ◼   ► buddy everything they started calling [TS]

00:31:58 ◼   ► Tommy John surgery because it's [TS]

00:31:59 ◼   ► something everybody all baseball players [TS]

00:32:00 ◼   ► start started getting didn't read Batman [TS]

00:32:03 ◼   ► comics when I was a kid not wasting no [TS]

00:32:05 ◼   ► time at all [TS]

00:32:06 ◼   ► now you know I didn't regard didn't i [TS]

00:32:08 ◼   ► didn't like them you know Tommy John's [TS]

00:32:10 ◼   ► baseball player though I yeah [TS]

00:32:13 ◼   ► yes i agree he's not the one that took [TS]

00:32:15 ◼   ► acid and pitched a perfect game [TS]

00:32:17 ◼   ► no no I think it's right Stuart not a [TS]

00:32:21 ◼   ► place i right [TS]

00:32:22 ◼   ► I i have heard a guy that I've heard [TS]

00:32:23 ◼   ► about this the guy was tripping balls [TS]

00:32:24 ◼   ► and nobody got on base [TS]

00:32:26 ◼   ► yeah tripping balls that bikini for his [TS]

00:32:29 ◼   ► memoir ok [TS]

00:32:32 ◼   ► oh my god that would be a great neighbor [TS]

00:32:34 ◼   ► is memoir tripping balls [TS]

00:32:37 ◼   ► you should be writing people anonymous [TS]

00:32:38 ◼   ► letters about improvement opportunities [TS]

00:32:40 ◼   ► and I should be coming up with the name [TS]

00:32:42 ◼   ► of sports memoirs [TS]

00:32:44 ◼   ► now let me as an aside Berlin yes I'm [TS]

00:32:47 ◼   ► hearing a lot of digital artifacts [TS]

00:32:51 ◼   ► ok do just exactly like Dropbox on I [TS]

00:32:54 ◼   ► know I say that probably like you ask me [TS]

00:32:56 ◼   ► that everytime and I don't but I'm gonna [TS]

00:32:58 ◼   ► total robot by voice from you too and [TS]

00:33:00 ◼   ► I'm having no packet loss from mine its [TS]

00:33:02 ◼   ► I'm noticing now that i did not plug my [TS]

00:33:06 ◼   ► dsl and we are doing this [TS]

00:33:08 ◼   ► realest wireless all right why don't you [TS]

00:33:11 ◼   ► let's do this [TS]

00:33:11 ◼   ► but what if you get a sec could you go [TS]

00:33:13 ◼   ► ahead and dsl yeah and Allah and the [TS]

00:33:17 ◼   ► port in what does that mean [TS]

00:33:20 ◼   ► pour it in and fucking a fucking thing i [TS]

00:33:22 ◼   ► restart ok alright let me give me two [TS]

00:33:25 ◼   ► minutes [TS]

00:33:26 ◼   ► ok Tommy John alright but so much better [TS]

00:33:31 ◼   ► is it better i think it's better to [TS]

00:33:34 ◼   ► leave all the same I think we should [TS]

00:33:35 ◼   ► blowing through the professionalism and [TS]

00:33:37 ◼   ► there's so much i cut out every week [TS]

00:33:38 ◼   ► John I don't know if you ever listen to [TS]

00:33:39 ◼   ► the show but I cut out we record [TS]

00:33:42 ◼   ► generally let's be honest we record for [TS]

00:33:44 ◼   ► six to 11 hours and argue about religion [TS]

00:33:47 ◼   ► for four hours and then I i cut out a [TS]

00:33:50 ◼   ► down to the best 90 minutes every time [TS]

00:33:52 ◼   ► but you leave in everything is all the [TS]

00:33:56 ◼   ► stuff I've been saying about Charlemagne [TS]

00:33:57 ◼   ► and Napoleon right [TS]

00:33:58 ◼   ► oh gosh you have that whole [TS]

00:34:00 ◼   ► three-episode arc just--just--just about [TS]

00:34:02 ◼   ► Charlemagne who good who life that [TS]

00:34:05 ◼   ► somebody heard that is he French is that [TS]

00:34:07 ◼   ► right [TS]

00:34:07 ◼   ► uh well Charlemagne was a was a was a [TS]

00:34:11 ◼   ► frank he was a German really let's let's [TS]

00:34:13 ◼   ► be honest he is better [TS]

00:34:15 ◼   ► who but that was before he was always so [TS]

00:34:17 ◼   ► clear cut though right yeah there were [TS]

00:34:19 ◼   ► those before there was a really like [TS]

00:34:20 ◼   ► clear division his is a his favorite to [TS]

00:34:23 ◼   ► town the headquarters of his empire was [TS]

00:34:25 ◼   ► rockin which is now in Germany but it [TS]

00:34:29 ◼   ► was you know it was right on the border [TS]

00:34:31 ◼   ► it's the westernmost town in Germany [TS]

00:34:33 ◼   ► rockin food i'm glad i left all that [TS]

00:34:38 ◼   ► includes yeah that's good stuff to [TS]

00:34:40 ◼   ► follow up yeah [TS]

00:34:41 ◼   ► Charlemagne and stuff i think it's [TS]

00:34:44 ◼   ► important that people realize [TS]

00:34:45 ◼   ► Merlin that you and I are human beings [TS]

00:34:47 ◼   ► were not just two guys with a [TS]

00:34:49 ◼   ► encyclopedic knowledge of everything [TS]

00:34:52 ◼   ► with all of you but we should we are [TS]

00:34:54 ◼   ► certainly not just that to be just that [TS]

00:34:56 ◼   ► we are sometimes guys who forget to plug [TS]

00:34:58 ◼   ► in their their dsl cables we are guys [TS]

00:35:01 ◼   ► who [TS]

00:35:02 ◼   ► can't lay their hands on their on their [TS]

00:35:04 ◼   ► bail oh wait wait I got my belt areas i [TS]

00:35:08 ◼   ► was so impressed that as so many people [TS]

00:35:10 ◼   ► knew that my bell was from an old Parker [TS]

00:35:13 ◼   ► Brothers called pit pit I I had not seen [TS]

00:35:16 ◼   ► that game since i since i took the [TS]

00:35:18 ◼   ► bailout of it [TS]

00:35:19 ◼   ► John I will be completely honest with [TS]

00:35:21 ◼   ► you I do promise you that I will laugh [TS]

00:35:23 ◼   ► and cry with you I didn't promise you [TS]

00:35:26 ◼   ► that I will help you achieve all you [TS]

00:35:27 ◼   ► know holes but most of all I do promise [TS]

00:35:30 ◼   ► you that I love you [TS]

00:35:33 ◼   ► that's from a poem called i love you [TS]

00:35:35 ◼   ► that's that's a hell of a promise mi [TS]

00:35:38 ◼   ► promise you that i love you i think [TS]

00:35:39 ◼   ► that's covered by fair use i just read [TS]

00:35:41 ◼   ► the last few lines you know what it's [TS]

00:35:43 ◼   ► not [TS]

00:35:43 ◼   ► she doesn't say I promise you that I [TS]

00:35:45 ◼   ► will love you she promises you that she [TS]

00:35:48 ◼   ► loves you sooo scary is that something [TS]

00:35:53 ◼   ► you really want assurance on you really [TS]

00:35:55 ◼   ► want someone that feels like they was in [TS]

00:35:57 ◼   ► the Godfather you know we have we have [TS]

00:35:58 ◼   ► we really need to assure each other like [TS]

00:36:00 ◼   ► lawyers like it did you know i mean the [TS]

00:36:02 ◼   ► thing is people have this idea that [TS]

00:36:05 ◼   ► unconditional love is the standard below [TS]

00:36:09 ◼   ► which they will not accept any other [TS]

00:36:11 ◼   ► kind of love and they end and somehow [TS]

00:36:13 ◼   ► this idea that that any of us deserve to [TS]

00:36:16 ◼   ► be loved unconditionally or that such a [TS]

00:36:18 ◼   ► thing is even possible has become a [TS]

00:36:22 ◼   ► thing that we tell each other and tell [TS]

00:36:23 ◼   ► ourselves over back and forth until it [TS]

00:36:27 ◼   ► seems normal until it seems normal until [TS]

00:36:29 ◼   ► there are people of my own personal [TS]

00:36:31 ◼   ► acquaintance who I know to be unlovable [TS]

00:36:34 ◼   ► sacks of shit who believe that they [TS]

00:36:36 ◼   ► deserve [TS]

00:36:36 ◼   ► not just love not just not just the love [TS]

00:36:40 ◼   ► of like their mother but unconditional [TS]

00:36:42 ◼   ► love from a partner and i look at my go [TS]

00:36:44 ◼   ► you can you are unlovable you're a [TS]

00:36:47 ◼   ► disgusting person how do you feel like [TS]

00:36:49 ◼   ► you deserve unconditional so if I [TS]

00:36:52 ◼   ► understand what you're saying that [TS]

00:36:53 ◼   ► you're saying that really for their own [TS]

00:36:54 ◼   ► for practical purposes they should at [TS]

00:36:57 ◼   ► least be open to conditions [TS]

00:36:59 ◼   ► here's what I'm saying that all of us [TS]

00:37:01 ◼   ► can only love conditionally and only [TS]

00:37:05 ◼   ► warrant being loved conditionally [TS]

00:37:08 ◼   ► ourselves that's a contract law we [TS]

00:37:09 ◼   ► should we should come up with what you [TS]

00:37:11 ◼   ► can fucking put up with [TS]

00:37:12 ◼   ► that's right when you say to a kid who [TS]

00:37:15 ◼   ► liked [TS]

00:37:16 ◼   ► I love you but go clean up your room [TS]

00:37:17 ◼   ► what you're saying is i love you but if [TS]

00:37:20 ◼   ► you don't clean up your room i will stop [TS]

00:37:21 ◼   ► loving you [TS]

00:37:22 ◼   ► mm what's everybody understand that's a [TS]

00:37:24 ◼   ► condition yeah i understand that that's [TS]

00:37:26 ◼   ► a temporary that's a temporary love [TS]

00:37:28 ◼   ► stoppage like until your room is clean [TS]

00:37:31 ◼   ► like hangin with do like I like a lot of [TS]

00:37:33 ◼   ► slow down that's right that's a lot of [TS]

00:37:34 ◼   ► slow down [TS]

00:37:35 ◼   ► it's like the guard that the love is [TS]

00:37:36 ◼   ► going to pile up on the sidewalk was who [TS]

00:37:38 ◼   ► is gonna start smell bad in the Sun Oh [TS]

00:37:40 ◼   ► until you get the room clean and in our [TS]

00:37:42 ◼   ► relationships with one another [TS]

00:37:44 ◼   ► you see this happen all the time like oh [TS]

00:37:45 ◼   ► yeah i mean i love you i love you i love [TS]

00:37:47 ◼   ► you but you really screwed me out you [TS]

00:37:50 ◼   ► really screwed the pooch last night on [TS]

00:37:53 ◼   ► the whole like washing the dishes after [TS]

00:37:54 ◼   ► dinner thing so I'm gonna be kind of [TS]

00:37:57 ◼   ► pouty and respond monosyllabic Lee for [TS]

00:38:00 ◼   ► an hour or two that's all conditional [TS]

00:38:03 ◼   ► love conditions conditions conditions i [TS]

00:38:06 ◼   ► I'll your feelings for Lori did you did [TS]

00:38:09 ◼   ► you have conditions in mind when you [TS]

00:38:10 ◼   ► when you didn't give her chocolates the [TS]

00:38:13 ◼   ► general they put it this way if you had [TS]

00:38:14 ◼   ► a chance to talk to her and she and she [TS]

00:38:16 ◼   ► had given you anything more than let's [TS]

00:38:17 ◼   ► be honest completely perfunctory fucking [TS]

00:38:19 ◼   ► Valentine if you had a meeting of the [TS]

00:38:21 ◼   ► minds with her as judge Wapner would say [TS]

00:38:22 ◼   ► how what kind of contract would you both [TS]

00:38:26 ◼   ► accept an offer to a lorry god rest her [TS]

00:38:28 ◼   ► soul [TS]

00:38:29 ◼   ► well here's the thing glory by all [TS]

00:38:31 ◼   ► appearances had a crush on Brian nominee [TS]

00:38:35 ◼   ► fucking Brian nominee and Brian mamunur [TS]

00:38:38 ◼   ► first of all he was a horrible name he [TS]

00:38:40 ◼   ► was a little teeny elf-like boy who was [TS]

00:38:46 ◼   ► like the same size as the girls and he [TS]

00:38:50 ◼   ► was pretty like the girls like [TS]

00:38:51 ◼   ► non-threatening he had blonde feathered [TS]

00:38:53 ◼   ► hair and it's not that he was [TS]

00:38:55 ◼   ► particularly swab he was just he was [TS]

00:38:58 ◼   ► like nick rhodes you know what I mean [TS]

00:39:00 ◼   ► like he was he was a he was pretty [TS]

00:39:02 ◼   ► pretty [TS]

00:39:03 ◼   ► I didn't even dislike him I like Brian [TS]

00:39:05 ◼   ► and he was completely inoffensive but [TS]

00:39:07 ◼   ► why Lori basler should love Brian [TS]

00:39:09 ◼   ► nominee or not even love it but just [TS]

00:39:12 ◼   ► like she gets she gave him a lot of [TS]

00:39:13 ◼   ► attention [TS]

00:39:14 ◼   ► did you did you think she was aware of [TS]

00:39:16 ◼   ► your other of your feelings I mean she [TS]

00:39:18 ◼   ► never got you never got the heart she [TS]

00:39:20 ◼   ► had to have been aware of them but then [TS]

00:39:23 ◼   ► that is a mistake I've made my whole [TS]

00:39:24 ◼   ► life assuming that they know the [TS]

00:39:26 ◼   ► Commission [TS]

00:39:27 ◼   ► assuming that the the person knows how I [TS]

00:39:30 ◼   ► feel [TS]

00:39:31 ◼   ► even though all my outward actions are [TS]

00:39:33 ◼   ► to look away when they are there and I [TS]

00:39:38 ◼   ► mean if we had inkwells I would have [TS]

00:39:40 ◼   ► dipped her pigtails and me [TS]

00:39:41 ◼   ► well she's no Howard oh my god that's [TS]

00:39:43 ◼   ► such a great way to show that you love [TS]

00:39:44 ◼   ► somebody she had blonde hair and she had [TS]

00:39:46 ◼   ► a Dorothy Hamill haircut because that [TS]

00:39:48 ◼   ► was the fashion at the time because of [TS]

00:39:50 ◼   ► Dorothy Hamill because what you're [TS]

00:39:52 ◼   ► awfully young so you're like eight eight [TS]

00:39:54 ◼   ► or nine [TS]

00:39:55 ◼   ► yeah eight to ten to twelve I mean was [TS]

00:39:57 ◼   ► she was my first she was my first and [TS]

00:39:59 ◼   ► really awful really the last time I ever [TS]

00:40:01 ◼   ► felt that way about last time I let [TS]

00:40:03 ◼   ► myself ever feel that way about somebody [TS]

00:40:04 ◼   ► because who can take the heart [TS]

00:40:07 ◼   ► heartbreak did I want to be 24 years old [TS]

00:40:10 ◼   ► and have my dad eating that box of [TS]

00:40:13 ◼   ► chocolates that self-same box of [TS]

00:40:15 ◼   ► chocolates if I need that shit yeah did [TS]

00:40:18 ◼   ► I want my dad like opening up the box [TS]

00:40:21 ◼   ► with the engagement ring in it being [TS]

00:40:22 ◼   ► like well this was free i don't know [TS]

00:40:27 ◼   ► that i can't get away from the idea of [TS]

00:40:29 ◼   ► the conditions but you hear that phrase [TS]

00:40:30 ◼   ► so much you know it's one of those [TS]

00:40:32 ◼   ► things on my additional people your [TS]

00:40:34 ◼   ► people say things like incipient but you [TS]

00:40:36 ◼   ► never heard them say sippy and like you [TS]

00:40:37 ◼   ► he run your unconditional love you've [TS]

00:40:39 ◼   ► never hear people talk about the obvious [TS]

00:40:41 ◼   ► fucking elephant in the room which is [TS]

00:40:43 ◼   ► what should be the conditions of love [TS]

00:40:44 ◼   ► now that would you love that would be [TS]

00:40:46 ◼   ► the conditions of love will be a [TS]

00:40:47 ◼   ► potential riffic season polish its [TS]

00:40:49 ◼   ► investment but one condition that most [TS]

00:40:52 ◼   ► people put wasn't what I say when I say [TS]

00:40:53 ◼   ► the conditions of love the conditions of [TS]

00:40:55 ◼   ► life is good [TS]

00:40:56 ◼   ► wasn't that a peter gabriel is it comes [TS]

00:40:59 ◼   ► to Christmas tree McCarver stuff up but [TS]

00:41:02 ◼   ► it looked a lot like this that people [TS]

00:41:04 ◼   ► put on love is that the other person [TS]

00:41:05 ◼   ► must love them unconditionally first you [TS]

00:41:08 ◼   ► don't mean that's the number that's the [TS]

00:41:09 ◼   ► number 1 i'm hanging with a pencil [TS]

00:41:11 ◼   ► because I so agree with you you're [TS]

00:41:12 ◼   ► absolutely fucking right [TS]

00:41:14 ◼   ► yeah i'm gonna love my 19 that's not [TS]

00:41:16 ◼   ► cool ah that's good there's the first [TS]

00:41:20 ◼   ► you know what it is it's like asking the [TS]

00:41:21 ◼   ► genie for more wishes you go in and you [TS]

00:41:23 ◼   ► say here's here's the condition is you [TS]

00:41:25 ◼   ► have you know tradition by persons I [TS]

00:41:27 ◼   ► want five more wishes [TS]

00:41:28 ◼   ► fuck you shut up it's all over for your [TS]

00:41:31 ◼   ► own our ok but here's the thing John [TS]

00:41:33 ◼   ► John you are scientists you're a [TS]

00:41:34 ◼   ► rationalist your Hobbesian [TS]

00:41:36 ◼   ► your man who's not afraid to argue with [TS]

00:41:38 ◼   ► john vanderslice about the price of a [TS]

00:41:39 ◼   ► trailer that was not going to be bought [TS]

00:41:41 ◼   ► I'm still arguing with him harrowing [TS]

00:41:43 ◼   ► harrowing moment my life I've seen you [TS]

00:41:45 ◼   ► I've seen you argue with people about [TS]

00:41:46 ◼   ► things that did not need to be argued [TS]

00:41:48 ◼   ► about until I realized after hearing you [TS]

00:41:50 ◼   ► argue about it [TS]

00:41:51 ◼   ► it sure as shit needed to be argued [TS]

00:41:52 ◼   ► about so here's what I'm saying to you [TS]

00:41:54 ◼   ► your man is not have a John are you [TS]

00:41:55 ◼   ► manage afraid to discussion can discuss [TS]

00:41:57 ◼   ► condition [TS]

00:41:58 ◼   ► absolutely not we should establish what [TS]

00:42:00 ◼   ► the conditions are that's primary [TS]

00:42:02 ◼   ► directive this is not what I signed up [TS]

00:42:04 ◼   ► for these nacho chips in this [TS]

00:42:05 ◼   ► fourteen-year-old girl in in my dressing [TS]

00:42:07 ◼   ► room is not anything that's going to put [TS]

00:42:08 ◼   ► gas in my fan correct [TS]

00:42:10 ◼   ► exactly exactly don't try and pay me [TS]

00:42:12 ◼   ► with dasani water i want american [TS]

00:42:15 ◼   ► dollars that's talking raccoon aqua my [TS]

00:42:17 ◼   ► friend you got so here's the thing you [TS]

00:42:19 ◼   ► have it seems to me you have not only [TS]

00:42:21 ◼   ► have no compunction you have the [TS]

00:42:22 ◼   ► opposite compunction you have in [TS]

00:42:24 ◼   ► compunction about going to people and [TS]

00:42:26 ◼   ► fucking throwing down some conditions [TS]

00:42:27 ◼   ► right you are you listening to me [TS]

00:42:30 ◼   ► here's here's the first thing I say is [TS]

00:42:31 ◼   ► what are your conditions all make them [TS]

00:42:34 ◼   ► make them come over the price first yeah [TS]

00:42:36 ◼   ► I'm not I'm not the guy was like here [TS]

00:42:37 ◼   ► are my conditions [TS]

00:42:39 ◼   ► that's not part of the problem with the [TS]

00:42:40 ◼   ► manslayer trailer got to cut this whole [TS]

00:42:41 ◼   ► thing out [TS]

00:42:42 ◼   ► was it that was something you had not [TS]

00:42:43 ◼   ► even completely negotiated the part you [TS]

00:42:45 ◼   ► had negotiated have been renamed upon [TS]

00:42:47 ◼   ► via third party that you had no of [TS]

00:42:50 ◼   ► litigious control over cracked right [TS]

00:42:52 ◼   ► I've never law school but it seems to me [TS]

00:42:54 ◼   ► that that was the problem was that there [TS]

00:42:55 ◼   ► was no there's a loophole in the [TS]

00:42:56 ◼   ► condition try to hold it the whole [TS]

00:42:58 ◼   ► business of like agreeing with somebody [TS]

00:42:59 ◼   ► over the telephone about how something [TS]

00:43:01 ◼   ► is going to go and then when you see [TS]

00:43:02 ◼   ► them next they're like why did agree to [TS]

00:43:04 ◼   ► that that is a real boy that's that [TS]

00:43:08 ◼   ► that's gotta really sticking your legal [TS]

00:43:09 ◼   ► cross it gets me going it really does [TS]

00:43:11 ◼   ► how do you have any idea how to open the [TS]

00:43:13 ◼   ► post negotiation settlement on something [TS]

00:43:15 ◼   ► like that you point out you point out [TS]

00:43:17 ◼   ► that you said something different on the [TS]

00:43:18 ◼   ► phone you put you push fucking reality [TS]

00:43:20 ◼   ► into their face you have to do it once [TS]

00:43:22 ◼   ► who make it smell it you did this you [TS]

00:43:25 ◼   ► did this they say if they say like I [TS]

00:43:27 ◼   ► have no recollection then then it's just [TS]

00:43:30 ◼   ► like well I mean then you have to have [TS]

00:43:32 ◼   ► to retreat back to what what's at stake [TS]

00:43:35 ◼   ► here like am I am i prepared to take [TS]

00:43:37 ◼   ► this thing in this instance in this [TS]

00:43:39 ◼   ► hypothetical instance this large van [TS]

00:43:42 ◼   ► trailer hypothetical trailer that was [TS]

00:43:44 ◼   ► just like WTF Emma and my primary market [TS]

00:43:46 ◼   ► drive this trailer back to Washington [TS]

00:43:49 ◼   ► from California [TS]

00:43:50 ◼   ► who just on principle just on principle [TS]

00:43:53 ◼   ► and my prepared to take this trailer [TS]

00:43:55 ◼   ► back to Washington so many people would [TS]

00:43:56 ◼   ► say now the answer is yes absolutely yes [TS]

00:44:00 ◼   ► on principle i will take this trailer [TS]

00:44:01 ◼   ► away from you I will burn this trailer [TS]

00:44:03 ◼   ► in the desert rather than give it to you [TS]

00:44:05 ◼   ► for one sending less than we agreed to [TS]

00:44:10 ◼   ► on the phone right and expects it [TS]

00:44:14 ◼   ► existentially user asst for you to be [TS]

00:44:17 ◼   ► put in that situation you don't know [TS]

00:44:19 ◼   ► you're the asshole i don't think so you [TS]

00:44:21 ◼   ► don't do that you don't do the thing we [TS]

00:44:22 ◼   ► were like oh yeah we'll figure that out [TS]

00:44:24 ◼   ► when you get down here and then be like [TS]

00:44:26 ◼   ► oh I thought we had it all figured out [TS]

00:44:28 ◼   ► which was that you were going to take it [TS]

00:44:30 ◼   ► in the shorts there's something just to [TS]

00:44:32 ◼   ► think about I mean if you if you I don't [TS]

00:44:34 ◼   ► actually read to the end of contracts a [TS]

00:44:36 ◼   ► lot of the time but it seems to get it [TS]

00:44:37 ◼   ► that the contract is where you both [TS]

00:44:39 ◼   ► agree that something is going to happen [TS]

00:44:40 ◼   ► by a certain date and and perhaps [TS]

00:44:43 ◼   ► importantly what you know what the terms [TS]

00:44:45 ◼   ► that are with it i think very [TS]

00:44:46 ◼   ► importantly what happens if the [TS]

00:44:48 ◼   ► conditions of this are not met [TS]

00:44:49 ◼   ► it seems to me that that's part of the [TS]

00:44:50 ◼   ► clarity of a contract right well and [TS]

00:44:54 ◼   ► this is the problem because there was a [TS]

00:44:56 ◼   ► time until very recently [TS]

00:44:58 ◼   ► we're in a situation like that you could [TS]

00:45:00 ◼   ► avail yourself of the option of punching [TS]

00:45:03 ◼   ► them in the middle but we have convinced [TS]

00:45:07 ◼   ► ourselves that civilization you require [TS]

00:45:09 ◼   ► the legal that's a motive legal recourse [TS]

00:45:11 ◼   ► up until recently it certainly why I [TS]

00:45:13 ◼   ► think President Andrew Jackson punched a [TS]

00:45:15 ◼   ► lot of guys in the next Magna Carta they [TS]

00:45:16 ◼   ► said you're either your signature your [TS]

00:45:18 ◼   ► brains are going on that thing John [TS]

00:45:20 ◼   ► that's right and Charlamagne would take [TS]

00:45:21 ◼   ► them out to the river and he would say [TS]

00:45:23 ◼   ► convert to Christianity or try and [TS]

00:45:25 ◼   ► breathe underwater [TS]

00:45:26 ◼   ► is that right and that's that's how we [TS]

00:45:27 ◼   ► know that you were true believer are bad [TS]

00:45:30 ◼   ► it's like a dog ducking stool well or [TS]

00:45:32 ◼   ► just like either either you're either [TS]

00:45:34 ◼   ► we're going to have a Christian world or [TS]

00:45:36 ◼   ► we're going to have a lot of dead people [TS]

00:45:37 ◼   ► in this river harder easy [TS]

00:45:39 ◼   ► that's right hardware the easy way so so [TS]

00:45:42 ◼   ► it was not very it was until very [TS]

00:45:45 ◼   ► recently that we we could still say like [TS]

00:45:47 ◼   ► a punch in the nose is on the table here [TS]

00:45:50 ◼   ► as one of a potential list of rewards [TS]

00:45:53 ◼   ► and consequences as part of this [TS]

00:45:55 ◼   ► negotiation it's implicit it's one of [TS]

00:45:56 ◼   ► those things like don't show up naked [TS]

00:45:57 ◼   ► like it's one of those things where I [TS]

00:45:59 ◼   ► shouldn't have to tell you this [TS]

00:46:00 ◼   ► yeah that's right in the night [TS]

00:46:02 ◼   ► hold i will hold as a motive recourse [TS]

00:46:04 ◼   ► fucking punching you in the face and I [TS]

00:46:05 ◼   ► don't even need to say that right but we [TS]

00:46:08 ◼   ► have decided as a culture as a [TS]

00:46:09 ◼   ► civilization that punching people in the [TS]

00:46:11 ◼   ► nose is barbaric and that when that we [TS]

00:46:13 ◼   ► know it is no longer an option yet the [TS]

00:46:17 ◼   ► behavior that would warrant a punch in [TS]

00:46:20 ◼   ► the nose [TS]

00:46:21 ◼   ► we have not evolved beyond it whoo right [TS]

00:46:23 ◼   ► there are certain behaviors that people [TS]

00:46:25 ◼   ► still exhibit all the time asshole [TS]

00:46:26 ◼   ► isness douche itude these are behaviors [TS]

00:46:30 ◼   ► that there's really no recourse except a [TS]

00:46:33 ◼   ► punch in the nose like that that's the [TS]

00:46:34 ◼   ► only that's the only appropriate [TS]

00:46:36 ◼   ► response but we've taken the punch of [TS]

00:46:38 ◼   ► punch in the nose off the table so you [TS]

00:46:40 ◼   ► get these situations where someone is [TS]

00:46:42 ◼   ► being a douche [TS]

00:46:43 ◼   ► you can't punch them in the nose because [TS]

00:46:44 ◼   ► that's uncivilized and so you are at an [TS]

00:46:47 ◼   ► impure and an impasse you there you [TS]

00:46:49 ◼   ► can't respond to a douche in any other [TS]

00:46:51 ◼   ► way [TS]

00:46:52 ◼   ► you can't argue with them you can't [TS]

00:46:54 ◼   ► convince them you can't there's you [TS]

00:46:57 ◼   ► don't eat there's nothing you can hold [TS]

00:46:58 ◼   ► over their head so they're just they're [TS]

00:47:01 ◼   ► just dancing in a field of flowers just [TS]

00:47:03 ◼   ► do shit up and they know there are no [TS]

00:47:05 ◼   ► consequences because if they left punch [TS]

00:47:08 ◼   ► in the nose has been taken off the table [TS]

00:47:09 ◼   ► if you even make a fist who you have [TS]

00:47:12 ◼   ► become part you become part of the salt [TS]

00:47:14 ◼   ► that counts of assault that's right the [TS]

00:47:16 ◼   ► the threat of a punch in the nose is now [TS]

00:47:19 ◼   ► considered a lot of people don't [TS]

00:47:20 ◼   ► understand that the difference in [TS]

00:47:21 ◼   ► assault and battery and here's the thing [TS]

00:47:23 ◼   ► i'm like anybody I don't want to get [TS]

00:47:27 ◼   ► punched in the nose [TS]

00:47:28 ◼   ► no I agree that punching people in the [TS]

00:47:31 ◼   ► nose is barbaric [TS]

00:47:32 ◼   ► I've been punched in the nose unlike a [TS]

00:47:35 ◼   ► lot of my contemporaries I have good [TS]

00:47:38 ◼   ► reason to not want to be punched in the [TS]

00:47:39 ◼   ► nose and let me tell you the fear of the [TS]

00:47:43 ◼   ► threat of being punched in the nose [TS]

00:47:45 ◼   ► actually it actually changed my behavior [TS]

00:47:47 ◼   ► at a certain point I was getting punched [TS]

00:47:49 ◼   ► in the nose with surprising regularity [TS]

00:47:51 ◼   ► and I wanted it to stop and I just [TS]

00:47:53 ◼   ► saying started holding up your side of [TS]

00:47:55 ◼   ► the bargain because she was on the table [TS]

00:47:57 ◼   ► well this kit this gives it either this [TS]

00:47:59 ◼   ► is a bass conspiracy or I'm getting [TS]

00:48:02 ◼   ► punched in the nose because of something [TS]

00:48:03 ◼   ► i'm doing and then I started to say [TS]

00:48:06 ◼   ► maybe I should stop being such a flaming [TS]

00:48:09 ◼   ► asshole the people who are bigger than [TS]

00:48:12 ◼   ► me or have violent eyes [TS]

00:48:15 ◼   ► and I and I and I became a more i became [TS]

00:48:18 ◼   ► a more moderated person and and [TS]

00:48:21 ◼   ► unfortunately I do not like to be the [TS]

00:48:23 ◼   ► one who delivers punches in the nose [TS]

00:48:24 ◼   ► either but there are those certain [TS]

00:48:27 ◼   ► situations in in life when someone at [TS]

00:48:30 ◼   ► the supermarket does not keep moving [TS]

00:48:32 ◼   ► does not get out of the way when you ask [TS]

00:48:34 ◼   ► them to either keep moving or get out of [TS]

00:48:36 ◼   ► the way preferably both [TS]

00:48:37 ◼   ► because let's keep moving and get out of [TS]

00:48:39 ◼   ► the way that's what able to you and they [TS]

00:48:41 ◼   ► give you some horseshit entitlement [TS]

00:48:44 ◼   ► lecture about your shopping like you're [TS]

00:48:46 ◼   ► stepping on their obscure religion [TS]

00:48:47 ◼   ► yeah and you look at him and you go the [TS]

00:48:51 ◼   ► threat of a punch in the nose is the [TS]

00:48:52 ◼   ► only that is the only thing i have here [TS]

00:48:55 ◼   ► now that's the only it's the only the [TS]

00:48:57 ◼   ► situation warrants at first of all but [TS]

00:48:59 ◼   ► also it's my only recourse and yet if i [TS]

00:49:02 ◼   ► do it [TS]

00:49:03 ◼   ► this person is going to literally call [TS]

00:49:05 ◼   ► the police and then i'm going to be the [TS]

00:49:08 ◼   ► guy you said you guys were you lose your [TS]

00:49:10 ◼   ► place in line to you know you lose your [TS]

00:49:12 ◼   ► place in you lose your place in the big [TS]

00:49:14 ◼   ► line which is the line up to the head of [TS]

00:49:17 ◼   ► the class where people where people [TS]

00:49:19 ◼   ► start listening to your podcast you know [TS]

00:49:21 ◼   ► what I mean like you don't you lose your [TS]

00:49:23 ◼   ► lot you you lose primogenitor boom you [TS]

00:49:30 ◼   ► don't splashed across the headlines [TS]

00:49:32 ◼   ► john-john Roderick punches only in the [TS]

00:49:34 ◼   ► face because of the conditions John I i [TS]

00:49:38 ◼   ► have i've had situation like this like a [TS]

00:49:41 ◼   ► few haters are greatly where I was at a [TS]

00:49:45 ◼   ► an event and I and some guide some drunk [TS]

00:49:51 ◼   ► guy was shouting in my face and it was a [TS]

00:49:56 ◼   ► hectic situation a lot of people there [TS]

00:49:58 ◼   ► was kind of a brawl a lot of people were [TS]

00:50:00 ◼   ► falling down other people were in [TS]

00:50:02 ◼   ► trouble people shouting my name like [TS]

00:50:04 ◼   ► come help me and this is in my face and [TS]

00:50:06 ◼   ► shouting in my face and it's getting [TS]

00:50:09 ◼   ► spit on [TS]

00:50:10 ◼   ► yes I told him a couple of times like [TS]

00:50:12 ◼   ► you need to please like step away from [TS]

00:50:15 ◼   ► me please back up please do not shut in [TS]

00:50:17 ◼   ► my face and he's drunk right so he's not [TS]

00:50:21 ◼   ► so any believes that that excuses him or [TS]

00:50:24 ◼   ► at least you know that he believes that [TS]

00:50:26 ◼   ► he is funnier than he is [TS]

00:50:27 ◼   ► he believes he's smarter than he is and [TS]

00:50:29 ◼   ► he's quicker with it and that he's as [TS]

00:50:31 ◼   ► faster reflexes than he does he's right [TS]

00:50:33 ◼   ► there in my face and he said something [TS]

00:50:35 ◼   ► about how they're gonna be consequences [TS]

00:50:38 ◼   ► he's talking about a friend of mine [TS]

00:50:40 ◼   ► that's across the room it's calling my [TS]

00:50:41 ◼   ► name is in between me and this guy there [TS]

00:50:43 ◼   ► are gonna be consequences blah blah and [TS]

00:50:45 ◼   ► I said well I don't even remember how it [TS]

00:50:48 ◼   ► happened but I was like there are gonna [TS]

00:50:49 ◼   ► be consequences [TS]

00:50:51 ◼   ► Wow and I I punched him right in the [TS]

00:50:53 ◼   ► nose and unfortunately it was it was a [TS]

00:50:56 ◼   ► well landed punch in the nose and he [TS]

00:50:59 ◼   ► began to bleed all over the place and i [TS]

00:51:02 ◼   ► have to say that it did not let me [TS]

00:51:05 ◼   ► punching this guy in the notes did not [TS]

00:51:06 ◼   ► deescalate the situation world worldwide [TS]

00:51:10 ◼   ► like in the room in the spilling out [TS]

00:51:13 ◼   ► onto the sidewalk [TS]

00:51:14 ◼   ► now it was a free-for-all and he was [TS]

00:51:17 ◼   ► screaming in the aid car came with the 8 [TS]

00:51:21 ◼   ► car under the ambulance [TS]

00:51:23 ◼   ► oh I thought everyone is yellow light [TS]

00:51:25 ◼   ► things but it's not quite the police [TS]

00:51:27 ◼   ► no no community community pretty service [TS]

00:51:30 ◼   ► people that bed pulled bums out of [TS]

00:51:31 ◼   ► dumpsters just sounds like about I think [TS]

00:51:35 ◼   ► work there for him they were there for [TS]

00:51:37 ◼   ► some other person who have gotten hurt [TS]

00:51:38 ◼   ► in in some other aspect of this brawl [TS]

00:51:41 ◼   ► but here i was i punch this time in [TS]

00:51:43 ◼   ► those I felt like such a a ding-dong [TS]

00:51:46 ◼   ► and then he then it after you mean he [TS]

00:51:49 ◼   ► certainly retreated but then when he was [TS]

00:51:51 ◼   ► surrounded by people who are like [TS]

00:51:52 ◼   ► petting his hair and telling them is [TS]

00:51:53 ◼   ► going to be ok he got bold again and [TS]

00:51:56 ◼   ► then with blood on his shirt [TS]

00:51:58 ◼   ► he stands up and confronts me again [TS]

00:52:01 ◼   ► screaming and now now these getting [TS]

00:52:03 ◼   ► blood on me and I punched him in the [TS]

00:52:05 ◼   ► nose again [TS]

00:52:06 ◼   ► oh and I'm know I'm really not proud of [TS]

00:52:08 ◼   ► it but the but the problem was that the [TS]

00:52:11 ◼   ► following day he took it to Facebook [TS]

00:52:14 ◼   ► this is as recently as Facebook yeah [TS]

00:52:18 ◼   ► this is just this very recently i'm not [TS]

00:52:20 ◼   ► proud of the story but he took it to [TS]

00:52:21 ◼   ► Facebook and was accusing me and it [TS]

00:52:23 ◼   ► turns out turns out who he was gay [TS]

00:52:27 ◼   ► oh so you use a hate crime so hate crime [TS]

00:52:30 ◼   ► and he turned it into a thing where I [TS]

00:52:32 ◼   ► was I [TS]

00:52:33 ◼   ► I had gay bashed him i'll come on buddy [TS]

00:52:36 ◼   ► was kids like crazy drunk guy in his [TS]

00:52:38 ◼   ► friends were not like grabbing him and [TS]

00:52:39 ◼   ► pulling him away his friends were all [TS]

00:52:41 ◼   ► drunk too and they were just they were [TS]

00:52:42 ◼   ► it was one of those things where they [TS]

00:52:44 ◼   ► had they were living in a world where [TS]

00:52:47 ◼   ► they believed they were postponed chin [TS]

00:52:49 ◼   ► the nose her right and so you can get up [TS]

00:52:53 ◼   ► in somebody's face in a bar drinking [TS]

00:52:54 ◼   ► getting us than the one sober guy in the [TS]

00:52:57 ◼   ► bars face drunken spittle on him [TS]

00:53:00 ◼   ► screaming at him about about bullshit [TS]

00:53:04 ◼   ► and telling them that they're going to [TS]

00:53:05 ◼   ► be consequences and all this stuff and [TS]

00:53:07 ◼   ► you believe you're living in a post [TS]

00:53:08 ◼   ► punch in the nose reality and and then [TS]

00:53:13 ◼   ► you get punched in the nose and you [TS]

00:53:14 ◼   ► realize you are not in a post punch in [TS]

00:53:16 ◼   ► the nose reality that maybe it must be [TS]

00:53:17 ◼   ► if i may say rather sobering it was well [TS]

00:53:20 ◼   ► but then when when when he sobered up [TS]

00:53:23 ◼   ► and when he won't he weighed this [TS]

00:53:26 ◼   ► situation he again believed he was [TS]

00:53:29 ◼   ► living in a punch post in the Pope but [TS]

00:53:31 ◼   ► post punch in the nose reality because [TS]

00:53:33 ◼   ► he began to threaten legal action he [TS]

00:53:36 ◼   ► began to call it a hate crime he did all [TS]

00:53:38 ◼   ► these things all these kind of like [TS]

00:53:39 ◼   ► shaming tactics and the end this and and [TS]

00:53:42 ◼   ► and operating it operating on the [TS]

00:53:45 ◼   ► assumption that a punch in the nose [TS]

00:53:47 ◼   ► above all else like to resort to [TS]

00:53:50 ◼   ► physical violence in a scenario where [TS]

00:53:52 ◼   ► you are being let us say emotionally [TS]

00:53:55 ◼   ► balanced gaya tacitly like threatening [TS]

00:53:58 ◼   ► violence against you [TS]

00:53:59 ◼   ► he's talking about consequences and [TS]

00:54:01 ◼   ► stuff that's in that that's the thing [TS]

00:54:02 ◼   ► when you were people who are living in a [TS]

00:54:04 ◼   ► post punch in the nose world they they [TS]

00:54:07 ◼   ► can they believe they can get up in your [TS]

00:54:09 ◼   ► face and talk about that they're going [TS]

00:54:11 ◼   ► to be consequences and be physically [TS]

00:54:13 ◼   ► threatening but that they that the but [TS]

00:54:16 ◼   ► sets a punch in the nose is impossible [TS]

00:54:18 ◼   ► then they aren't actually being [TS]

00:54:20 ◼   ► physically threatening they don't they [TS]

00:54:22 ◼   ► they don't perceive themselves as [TS]

00:54:23 ◼   ► threatening violence even though [TS]

00:54:26 ◼   ► everything they're doing is suggesting [TS]

00:54:28 ◼   ► that but what do you think it's like to [TS]

00:54:31 ◼   ► pro wrestlers on the phone [TS]

00:54:32 ◼   ► yeah like that's gonna happen they think [TS]

00:54:35 ◼   ► it is a giant costume drama or they [TS]

00:54:37 ◼   ► think that it'sit's something that [TS]

00:54:38 ◼   ► they've seen it on television where [TS]

00:54:39 ◼   ► people get up in each others face [TS]

00:54:41 ◼   ► and that that is that that happens in a [TS]

00:54:45 ◼   ► vacuum and then it isn't like it isn't a [TS]

00:54:48 ◼   ► hundred thousand year old tradition of [TS]

00:54:51 ◼   ► escalating a situation until somebody [TS]

00:54:54 ◼   ► punched someone else in the note and its [TS]

00:54:56 ◼   ► really at I like I confess to being a [TS]

00:55:00 ◼   ► little bit prehistoric in this regard [TS]

00:55:02 ◼   ► that there are some situations where [TS]

00:55:05 ◼   ► particularly if you're standing on my [TS]

00:55:06 ◼   ► shoes and spitting in my face [TS]

00:55:09 ◼   ► it does not matter what your sexual [TS]

00:55:11 ◼   ► orientation is and nothing could be more [TS]

00:55:12 ◼   ► paternalistic or more i don't want to [TS]

00:55:15 ◼   ► say homophobic but nothing could be more [TS]

00:55:16 ◼   ► paternalistic than going [TS]

00:55:18 ◼   ► you are such a flaming asshole who is [TS]

00:55:20 ◼   ► threatening me with violence and now i'm [TS]

00:55:22 ◼   ► going to sit here and parts your [TS]

00:55:22 ◼   ► sexuality I don't think that's how it [TS]

00:55:24 ◼   ► works well I'm not about that that's [TS]

00:55:26 ◼   ► that was the least of my concerns that [TS]

00:55:27 ◼   ► the because he was also a university [TS]

00:55:29 ◼   ► person and he was told he was you know [TS]

00:55:31 ◼   ► threatening all the different levels of [TS]

00:55:33 ◼   ► which this wasn't this was bottled [TS]

00:55:35 ◼   ► university person by which i mean he was [TS]

00:55:38 ◼   ► a graduate student so dear me so he had [TS]

00:55:41 ◼   ► all of the language so he could write a [TS]

00:55:42 ◼   ► three day at dissertation about you he [TS]

00:55:44 ◼   ► could he could write a very good [TS]

00:55:45 ◼   ► gracious your leaders from the word [TS]

00:55:47 ◼   ► thesis very long series of facebook post [TS]

00:55:49 ◼   ► but of course what he didn't know is [TS]

00:55:51 ◼   ► that i'm also that i'm also an amateur [TS]

00:55:53 ◼   ► lawyer so I know haha i knew that he [TS]

00:55:58 ◼   ► didn't know what he was talking about [TS]

00:55:58 ◼   ► and I just I just blocked it Collin [TS]

00:56:01 ◼   ► County I'm blocking your counselor was [TS]

00:56:04 ◼   ► like tell you what go ahead [TS]

00:56:06 ◼   ► yeah and it get all your friends all [TS]

00:56:08 ◼   ► real upset about it but what of the [TS]

00:56:09 ◼   ► whole point of this was that I became [TS]

00:56:11 ◼   ► conscious at that point of being a [TS]

00:56:13 ◼   ► public figure and all the sex was not [TS]

00:56:16 ◼   ► that I was a guy in a bar who had [TS]

00:56:17 ◼   ► punched an asshole in the nose but it [TS]

00:56:19 ◼   ► was that I was a person whose whose name [TS]

00:56:24 ◼   ► was recognizable and who was a [TS]

00:56:27 ◼   ► recognizable character and so this guy [TS]

00:56:29 ◼   ► had you know it's the it's the ice build [TS]

00:56:32 ◼   ► McDonald's coffee in my lap and I'm [TS]

00:56:34 ◼   ► suing them for a billion dollars for her [TS]

00:56:36 ◼   ► his reaction was not go measure it with [TS]

00:56:39 ◼   ► with the with the incident you know that [TS]

00:56:43 ◼   ► coffee actually was too hot i know it [TS]

00:56:45 ◼   ► was ok [TS]

00:56:46 ◼   ► the coffee's too hot tubs too hot I [TS]

00:56:48 ◼   ► can't flew all the way down here [TS]

00:56:50 ◼   ► yeah we got about put all this liquor [TS]

00:56:51 ◼   ► just for you that we got one piece that [TS]

00:56:53 ◼   ► we got the small chair just for you and [TS]

00:56:54 ◼   ► your [TS]

00:56:55 ◼   ► never happy about money and doing some [TS]

00:56:58 ◼   ► money it's too hot but I still watch [TS]

00:57:01 ◼   ► that once a month but the bed but but he [TS]

00:57:05 ◼   ► then was you know he was blowing his [TS]

00:57:06 ◼   ► injury out of proportion i mean really [TS]

00:57:08 ◼   ► he posted a picture of himself he didn't [TS]

00:57:09 ◼   ► look terrible [TS]

00:57:10 ◼   ► haha oh yeah black guys but I mean I [TS]

00:57:13 ◼   ► know that there are people who are [TS]

00:57:15 ◼   ► listening to this who are saying to [TS]

00:57:16 ◼   ► themselves [TS]

00:57:17 ◼   ► I don't want to be punched in the nose [TS]

00:57:18 ◼   ► nobody wants to be punched in there [TS]

00:57:20 ◼   ► that's why that's why is there don't [TS]

00:57:22 ◼   ► think punching someone in the nose an [TS]

00:57:23 ◼   ► appropriate reaction but i don't think [TS]

00:57:25 ◼   ► it is i don't think it should be on the [TS]

00:57:27 ◼   ► list of consequences that we have in [TS]

00:57:29 ◼   ► civilized society and and I'm afraid [TS]

00:57:32 ◼   ► that i agree with you i don't like to be [TS]

00:57:35 ◼   ► punched in the nose either i don't like [TS]

00:57:37 ◼   ► punching someone but this is this is [TS]

00:57:38 ◼   ► this is the point is the point of the [TS]

00:57:40 ◼   ► whole thing this is where the conditions [TS]

00:57:41 ◼   ► come back don't want to be punched in [TS]

00:57:43 ◼   ► the nose don't drunkenly stand on [TS]

00:57:45 ◼   ► somebody's shoe tops now is it's [TS]

00:57:48 ◼   ► absolutely true i mean here's my lasagna [TS]

00:57:50 ◼   ► is he that should be on the front page [TS]

00:57:52 ◼   ► should be on the the title page of be a [TS]

00:57:56 ◼   ► the owners manual for being an adult [TS]

00:57:59 ◼   ► that you would they were the TA for [TS]

00:58:01 ◼   ► whatever he was writing on facebook your [TS]

00:58:03 ◼   ► note in the margin would be you need to [TS]

00:58:05 ◼   ► spend a little more time on the history [TS]

00:58:07 ◼   ► of what used to be like in pre punch in [TS]

00:58:09 ◼   ► the nose culture that's right you need [TS]

00:58:12 ◼   ► to be ready the fact is going to be [TS]

00:58:13 ◼   ► traditional there's gonna be there's [TS]

00:58:14 ◼   ► gonna be people who still like the [TS]

00:58:16 ◼   ► Shakers like the friends there are [TS]

00:58:18 ◼   ► people who still cling to these values [TS]

00:58:20 ◼   ► you know just because they don't own a [TS]

00:58:21 ◼   ► car doesn't mean they can't run you over [TS]

00:58:22 ◼   ► with something you know that's true okay [TS]

00:58:25 ◼   ► i think a lot of people think that they [TS]

00:58:27 ◼   ► are smaller than they are like they they [TS]

00:58:30 ◼   ► inhabit their own body and their own [TS]

00:58:32 ◼   ► soul and they think that they are [TS]

00:58:34 ◼   ► smaller and less significant than they [TS]

00:58:35 ◼   ► appear to be two other people you know [TS]

00:58:37 ◼   ► so this guy his perception of himself [TS]

00:58:40 ◼   ► it was probably that he was an elfin [TS]

00:58:44 ◼   ► delicate flower that now is obvious to [TS]

00:58:48 ◼   ► everyone and he does not realize that he [TS]

00:58:50 ◼   ► is a five foot eleven screaming monster [TS]

00:58:54 ◼   ► of an alcoholic and so his reaction to [TS]

00:58:58 ◼   ► being punched in the nose is somewhat [TS]

00:59:00 ◼   ► based on his self perception of being [TS]

00:59:03 ◼   ► like this defenseless victim [TS]

00:59:06 ◼   ► that he's that he's felt like he's been [TS]

00:59:08 ◼   ► his whole life and in actual fact most [TS]

00:59:11 ◼   ► people who feel like victims i mean most [TS]

00:59:12 ◼   ► of the people who are like cutting you [TS]

00:59:14 ◼   ► off in traffic who are being total talks [TS]

00:59:17 ◼   ► to you and that in the supermarket if [TS]

00:59:19 ◼   ► you really get to the bottom of their [TS]

00:59:21 ◼   ► problem it is that they feel like a [TS]

00:59:22 ◼   ► victim all the time they feel like [TS]

00:59:24 ◼   ► everybody steppin on them and that's why [TS]