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slash supertrain hello hi John
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hi Merlin how's it going good how are
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you I'm doing great
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wow you do you sound great
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yes I've decided that I'm Pepe today or
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permanently
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oh I don't know you know just try to
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look on the bright side of life you
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don't know saying yeah I mean that
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lasted for a minute or two there yep yep
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you just keep looking at the chimneys
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you know I'm saying
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looking at the chimney that's what they
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say they say look at the chimneys when
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you're walking around
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most people will like stare at the
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ground or stare at the middle-distance
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try to remember to look up look at the
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chimneys it will look you look at the
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chimneys it'll elevate your mood yeah
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you'll see the chimbley sleeps bear oh
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boy oh yeah look at the chimneys I don't
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know it's like diets
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who knows if those things actually work
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looking at the chimneys looking at the
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chimneys but if you tell yourself it
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works it might work yeah smile when you
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sing that's right and smile when you
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talking to the phone not as good as a
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wink to a blind bat is that right smile
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when you're talking to the phone I guess
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so that's my mom I try that said that
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she's in sales she learned that when
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you're talking to someone smile yeah how
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does this is this podcast sound better
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what - deranged clap let's try and set
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up them it sounds pretty good kind of
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weird if we could do the whole show like
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this that we could I bet from now on if
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we just smiled through the whole show
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it'd be a much more we said scared
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we sound very scared have you noticed
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that I mention this before but if you
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listen to a sportscaster talking about
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sports yeah the sound that they make is
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the same exact sound as if you were
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yelling at somebody because you're
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really mad at
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anything is heavily compressed probably
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no no I mean I don't mean the asana
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thing they're normal they're normal
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voice it sounds like they're like
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yelling somebody in traffic or something
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yeah exactly like here he comes that is
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that you know it's just like it's uh
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it's the same it evokes the same that is
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so interesting like if you like you know
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you think about like when you listen to
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like people calling like South American
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as they say football games you can get
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that vibe clearer if you're not a native
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speaker because the tone just sounds so
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manic oh yeah they're really upset I'm
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interested in in the radio host Alex
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Jones I'm very interested in him and so
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well I don't want to get too far into it
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I've talked about this a lot of places a
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lot of times very interested in Alex
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Jones but you know I turned to you as an
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industry expert like I've heard him when
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he just talks and yells he has a very
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low and very kind of grindy voice in
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real life but but when they record him
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for his show for his YouTube stuff for
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his radio show they do something I think
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they do something to his voice I think
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it's something they do to a lot of talk
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voices and I always it I'm right it
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sounds bigger it sounds growler it
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sounds more evenly growly do you know
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saying is that is that quality of the
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microphone do you think it's compression
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like would aural enhancement like what
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do you do to make some noise out like
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this like not how we're talking it's
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mega compressed mm-hmm um you know
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because it's compressed it's compressed
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at the source and it's compressed up the
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chain and then it's you know it's got
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that crazy radio compression on it too
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okay when I think of like AM radio
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especially and that the particular kind
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of sound somebody on like talk radio he
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that's mostly compression well so what's
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funny about that compression is I was
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having a very very interesting
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conversation with the radio DJ not very
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long ago a professional professional was
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somewhat better KEXP John well he was
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describing an experience of going to kxb
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he is himself not a KEXP DJ
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but but he was going there to do an
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interview and talk to some KEXP
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people you know talk to talk to the
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professional KEXP DJ's and he got there
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and he said that little trick of the
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trade that the KEXP DJ who is a who's
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fairly famous person in these parts at
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least not your morning guy well you know
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let's just say for the sake of yeah for
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the sake of argument let's just say it's
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a morning guy give some legal reason
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that you're being so desi about who
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these people are
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well you know small town here huh and
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people get really you know that he's
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always brought times John Frye you know
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you want to be careful who you tell
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people you know yeah yeah so Amos st
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setup so here he is and he's doing this
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interview with the guy and he
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immediately recognizes that he's got the
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he's got the compression on on their
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interview like it's super slammed and
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he's got it so that his voice the the
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host is just always going to be a little
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bit louder a little bit like better then
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the guest he gets the Alpha setting the
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the gorilla mindset setting yeah but but
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my my my um my companion in this
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conversation says he recognized the
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compression was so crazy that he just
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started talking really quietly and the
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compressor then because he was talking
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so quietly the compressor would would
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super super grab on to his voice and and
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it made him the louder of the two
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because he was he was working with the
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be understood that the compressor was
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set in such a way that the more quietly
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you spoke the more the compressor would
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work and and it was it was actually
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making his voice appear louder by virtue
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of just talking more and more
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quietly why so he was he was he was like
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gaming this guy's compressor settings in
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the interview and and you could you buy
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the story you could tell that that the
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other DJ recognized what he was doing
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but you know is some somewhat powerless
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because this is his tone missus his
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setting this is his tone he can't start
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to get weird and tell you going I can
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all get all like uh AOR yeah he had a
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mage a he had to maintain his tone his
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vocal sciences that's his local brand so
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this other you know this other character
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was just like yeah that's very
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interesting good question and it was
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like really you know his voice was
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really I think filling up people's ear
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ear holes so Alex Jones may in fact not
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be making that much noise he's got the
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gravel and his voice he's talking yeah
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I'm a nice guy but he's but he's maybe
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not making that much volume it might be
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that that his compressors are doing all
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the work cuz if you talked like that all
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the time you would be blowing your voice
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look like you could say I remember
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hearing a thing on public radio where I
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hear about these things about I believe
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you can take a class to learn how to do
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like shredding metal vocals in a way
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that doesn't wreck your voice apparently
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there's a method for doing that if you
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do it the way it sounds like you should
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do it you'll just you'll shred your
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voice how did Bobcat Goldthwait do that
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all those years oh I don't know I think
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he's just a little broken inside he's uh
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but you know that you're right this part
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of the brand so it's probably also
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fairly heavily gated so every word but
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like with a fast gait like a strong but
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fast gait right mm-hmm strong Bathgate
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I'm this more than really understand is
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a great TV show Bathgate also didn't
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they do that song daenam in linen linen
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a nail down fast course fascinate
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clothes you will what yeah I'm still
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smiling
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uh well the you know uh the big big
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reveal for us in the in the Rock and
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Roll scene was realizing that Chris
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Cornell made almost no sound at all huh
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Chris Cornell of Soundgarden rumor was
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that he earned through monitor guys
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because he had this sort of him that
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this impossible situation which was he's
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fronting this massive band and if you
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listen to the records you know is
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fucking killing it but in fact he's
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making like he's moving very very little
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air and he's just like oh yeah what now
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and he figures it out oh that wrote that
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means that in the midst of all of that
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very very loud noise they've got to be
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able to bring up his vocals without
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causing feedback correct
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that sounds very challenging correct
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they've got to be able to bring up his
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vocals in the monitors right like it at
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the front of the house trigger ly if
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you're playing super big rooms you know
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you've got a lot of you can do a lot up
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there right to make everything sound
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right if you're good at at front of
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house but you know that I think
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especially before in-ear monitors your
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monitor guys just like look man I'm
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giving you all that I can and he's that
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play he's up there saying I can't hear
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myself Oh fine fine more uh-huh pretty
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crazy but but that may have been true of
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that may actually be true this and I've
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wondered this for a long time it may in
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some or another way be true of all those
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maybe Kurt Cobain wasn't seeing that
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loud maybe none of them sing that loud
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maybe I'm an idiot because I didn't
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understand now I didn't understand how
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microphones work
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Django so working harder not smarter
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that's exactly what what I terrified him
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like I got up there when I first started
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playing rock music and I thought that's
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what it sounded like and
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I was capable of making that much noise
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what I was capable of making as much
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noise as it sounded like and so I would
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just scream into these microphones I
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didn't need to I could have just been
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like lot of data data data instead of
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you know I was really going for it at
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the end of a show I lay down on the
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floor panting and did when I was 20
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uh-huh did you have to I could have just
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been using the microphone I could have
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just turned up the knob just use the mic
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but this isn't something we revisited
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several times in the past but the
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especially when you're when you're
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touring and let's say you're in Europe
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or you know really anywhere it's really
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it's a different night every night in
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terms of the setup and the sound you
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know what all your stuff should sound
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like but you know it could be you just
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get the you know the sound man is too
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high and the bartender has to run sound
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or something right where you have to be
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don't you have to be very self
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sufficient to like where you could
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recording right you read out you write a
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hit song it's just a listen I am looking
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that's what I kept saying to people
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didn't they're not really listening
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teaspoon every time I say teaspoon it
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understand that there's five teaspoon
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you have to explain your teaspoons to
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anybody boo yeah so he's like oh that
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different things about teaspoon teaspoon
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maybe wasn't down with the heist piece
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boom baby wasn't down with the heist
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she was not down was not down with it I
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there how that's true uh but you know I
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that I can about you've already built in
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your mind and like now that mortgage is
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paid off whether you like it or not
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let's be honest you live in your house
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mine yes yes yes all right as long as
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we're really gonna lose a lot of people
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yeah you know I don't know if you've
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ever noticed when we're recording you
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have better ears than I I don't know if
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you've ever noticed but sometimes when
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we're recording you may occasionally
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hear the sound of a streetcar a going by
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yeah yeah probably I don't notice it if
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you go back and listen you'll probably
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you've heard it probably a couple times
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ding ding okay here's my question to you
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there's only a minimum of things that I
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can do with damping there are some
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things I could do but that is is it's a
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multi-ton train here comes one right now
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rattling the ground and shaking where I
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terrible decision to be next to a
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streetcar line - oh the corner goes you
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might know you probably didn't hear it
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but that was a train that just went by
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yeah and would I be well-served to get
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I'm just these are words I've read on
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the internet and never said out loud
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what I be well-served to get a car toy
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or supercar toyed microphone would that
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help minimize the amount of occasional
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streetcar sound that people hear on this
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program
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hmm I'm currently using a shure uh i
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think it's an 87 a beta 87 a is what i
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use right that's a that's a nice
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microphone and you you are on a classic
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SMB right no right now I'm on my own you
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dingus my B caster remote microphone
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that's the one you can put in your tummy
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when you talk right that's right that's
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currently I
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book about the history of the Brooks
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Brothers company the people who make
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suits yes huh
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now the people that make suits you know
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it's a venerable company we it's that's
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one of those terms that we use when we
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venerable and this different Bobbie
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Brooks like in the John Cougar song it's
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different yeah you know blame Bobby
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Brooks let him do what he pleased uh
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that must be some kind of short short Oh
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Bobbie Brooks okay or busy ISM yeah
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maybe it's a maybe it's a saddle shoe or
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something okay sorry I've got a Midwest
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thing figures in one of the little text
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uh doesn't matter talking with some
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other people who do these things they
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were talking about the need to do
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interviews yeah um and being in a an
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environment where picked up lots of
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background sound and one suggestion was
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to get something called car toy tour
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super car toy now is that a super tight
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grouping of where that it will pick up
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the sound is that what that means a
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super tight car toy is you're saying is
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a car toys oh it's a I think it's I'm
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gonna look it up I think it's a kind of
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car toy super yeah car toy boy see my
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pretty further okay it could be hyper
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car toys a car - car - what the what
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they're talking about is car totality Oh
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car card cardioid cardioid cardioid is
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part of the body part okay so so what
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will edit that out party oh yeah
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cardioid is an artery okay so I should
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not get one that has a narrow arteries
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that would not be good for me as a man
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of my age no I think you're gonna want I
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think you're gonna want one with this
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big car toyed artery as you dare to put
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a stent in my mic yeah yeah the thing
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now so in terms of your in terms of your
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like your Carty ID microphones you can
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you can adjust that on a lot of
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microphones the one that you have right
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now you cannot the the the sure the the
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big dildo one that everybody likes the
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one you like for singing that what is
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that SMB so what's called that's some
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seven that one you get little clickers
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adjust I mean a lot of microphones like
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the one that I'm I'm talking into right
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now um has has settings it doesn't it it
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doesn't it doesn't actually say cardioid
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your mono and then you can switch it to
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your stereo really and key do the
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roll-off thingy the roller thingy isn't
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their thing yet on the bottom of the of
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the sure there's a little wave I don't
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know what it does but if you get
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yourself a little a little tiny like
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eyeglasses screwdriver you can puck
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scoot that over and that doesn't that
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change your amount of base and whatnot
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yeah you can you so there are things
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called high-pass filters and they're
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things called low-pass filters and just
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as they sound if you put a high-pass
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filter on something it lets the high
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sounds pass and does not let the low
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sounds through it will it'll roll the
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low off because there's things in in in
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audio there are at the low end and at
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the high end there are sounds that
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although you can't hear them let's say
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you can't hear them they can take up a
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lot of space in your mind house hmm
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so interesting there's all this low-end
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information that can get put into a
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recording that I mean there's certainly
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there's a lot of it that you can hear
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but there's also a lot of it that maybe
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you can't hear but when you take it away
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you can hear the absence of all this
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garbage you know like it it's not it's
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it's it's sonic information that is
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below the level of like a recognizable
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note interesting so it's not going to be
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jamming up the signal with something
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that doesn't need to be there yeah you
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cut it out then you get and yen you you
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cut it out up to the level that you're
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getting like oh that's a note that
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belongs there or like in a kick drum
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you know you you don't want you don't
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want unlimited low-end
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because it goes down there and it
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collects in the corners and it's full of
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dust and skin flakes oh you have to
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probably like drain it or get like it's
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a detail it like you get a q-tip and get
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all that stand out of there it's it's
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all it's all down there and it's going a
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little lower and it just adds garbage to
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your sound and it's true in our voices
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right if you have a double a double kick
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drum you get but I imagine at least
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twice as much you get it's three times
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as much but it's an additive quality
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it's a logarithmic curve that's science
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okay and at the top-end it's also true
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that way way up high again not stuff
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that you maybe necessarily can actually
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hear like pinpoint and say like I hear
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that but way up there there's all this
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way way up at the top that is also
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clouding your sound and and and causing
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you disarmed me and I think I think the
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way it's described is that that stuff
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will harmonically resonate with things
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that you can hear it affects the sound
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of the things that you that are audible
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to you because sound interacts with
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these with itself right and so high-pass
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filters and low-pass filters you put on
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in order to kind of collect this the
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information that you want which is here
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in this area where we can hear but you
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can add weird top-end
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to things to make the make it sound
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brighter or make it feel like the roof
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is taller there's all its sound is this
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crazy thing where you can you can make
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the room sound like it's a different
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room by virtue of how you how much of
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this strange top-end that you put in it
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that you that you're not actually
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consciously here it's such a it's such a
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dark art I mean I guess this is really
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obviously somebody who's done this for a
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living and you know I've done some of
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this not so much for a living but like
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she's amazing how many factors are
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involved I watched a pretty interesting
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in passing
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that was about this guy in I want to say
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England who has gone to great time
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expense to essentially recreate every
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aspect conceivable a 1950s Sun studio
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type setup and it was and he just even
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as an amateur it was fascinating to
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watch I'll find the link for you but
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basically he's this guy who wanted to
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say say like he's he's try this is his
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you know his differentiating factor is
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that he has like a legit like operating
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50s it's just all the whole stack is all
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like you know no later than the 50s
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technology and what the experiment they
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did was to see what you could do the
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best way to do like a Bill Monroe type
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one mic setup to record a band versus
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what you can do with two mics and it was
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so fascinating hear him talk about like
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I guess you know mics have different
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dead spots like having to do with the
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car Toit as you say but basically like
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how you put the drums up this far away
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and in this area so that they only get
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picked up by this part of the mic it was
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fascinating the what a dark art it was
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to get that done right unbelievable and
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what's crazy is that now we we all are
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listening to stereo music recorded
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stereo and mix stereo what's a mixed
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stereo which means that across the
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stereo field typically what we do is we
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put the drums on the bass right up the
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middle which means that they are equally
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drum drum recordings where they actually
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record the drums and and mix them
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mono recording of a full drum kit and we
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happening
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sitting talking into a microphone like
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mean the you know will your chair back a
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foot and talking to it huh
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okay here's me back here and we're
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closer to it wanna know or I can speak
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quietly and I'm proximity it so yeah
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it's absolutely you know and so do these
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things if you use that microphone
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properly your you know your lips are not
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adjusting the directionality of your mic
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the train let's be honest I would miss
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it you could put a weird noise gate on
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what you're doing but if you're talking
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you're worried about like the train
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a you could put a like a some kind of
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sound weird to you would hear this gate
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set really really nicely I think you
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going to make a terrible dad joke about
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name pause ilaqua
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fossil aqua that is double aqua is
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drinking water what is posilac well
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the chaco the Germans love it when you
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guess what things mean like you
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that's what possible aqua means possible
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I'm passing the water transitively urban
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dictionary pasal aqua is a baller a
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person I see I ever been dictionary has
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saying essentially the same thing but
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everybody gets just everybody gets to
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say it in their own way and that's
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starting to get boring like it happened
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being easy easy D what's up easy D and I
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heard yeah so I know don't email me I
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don't care but several people very
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confidently gave very different
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conclusive readings of what that means
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easy D and and I think it's maybe some
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let me see what it says easy D uh-huh
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easy easy D according to the dictionary
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a top that's just really nice to say a
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easy D you see this is a mess this is a
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mess people see the jackals the Jackals
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the penis deeply desired by Donald Trump
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see ya a CD second definition a man that
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be normative here oh but I think dick is
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a word that men use more often than
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when specifically referring to a penis
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of note uh in my experience they don't
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say dick as much whoo girls yeah dick
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sort of sort
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boobs and tits type situation mm-hmm
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mm-hmm I mean don't you feel like
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there's differences in in in who uses
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that in a not meant to be offensive way
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but just like this is how I talk about
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my body I have never heard a woman used
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the word boobs I don't think really I I
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knew some wife heard very few women say
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tits hmm it's ugly its tits
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tinnie tinnie word I get with it that
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would write the word boobs BEW be s
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that's really cute she would send that
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in written communication Eve's but I but
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I don't you know this is the thing right
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I mean dirty talk how do you how do you
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affect how do you pull it off even work
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yeah it's a it's very confusing you
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don't know you don't know exactly where
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because it's all very all the words are
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bad yeah you gotta be careful remarks
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when you're exploring that kind of thing
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you need you need to be real careful
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well careful just because it's because
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of it is spell breaking like it's it's
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not it's not that it's not that it's
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offensive so much it is or offense or
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not offensive or whatever but you don't
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want to make the other person laugh when
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you are being serious right when here
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laughs my dick and they go and he say
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what that's something something bad has
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happened it's gone off the rails you
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know and if she says like oh I'm sorry
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the only person that ever used the word
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dick was my grandfather hmm you know
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like I I mean I I knew a girl who said
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one time like her grandmother used the
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word twat what at just as a just as a
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descriptor just as you now would say
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vagina it was just some fucking
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Appalachian thing where she would be
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changing like the little girl's diaper
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and like oh well here wipe her little
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twat or whatever my goodness really
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so this girl like that word which Allah
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of us would feel like was like a pretty
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tough work pretty edgy to her it was
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just like a sweet little old comfortable
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like country grandma word so everybody's
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got a different everybody's got brings a
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whole different bunch of suitcases into
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that mind room and how the hell do you
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do it you know like for a long time I
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would never use vagina in that context
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because it sounded like something that
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your OBGYN
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yeah it sounds a little bit kind of
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collage achill but there but it is the
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it is the term of art it's true and so I
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think there are a lot of people that are
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like listen there's not a lot of good
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words here so just stick to the you know
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stick to the main one stick to the road
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right don't go off into the UM are you I
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had I was fortunate enough to be seeing
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a girl in college who had a really cute
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one and it was so she had a she had a
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little sister who was one of those
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miracle babies like she was she was 21
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her brother was 19 and then her baby
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sister was two yeah yeah yes her mom got
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pregnant like 42 like out of nowhere you
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imagine the surprise surprise guess what
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a few things around yeah you thought you
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were gonna go live on a cruise ship
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didn't you and and her her mother would
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when referring to her her swimsuit area
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downstairs we'll call it all bottom and
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I still think that's really cute yeah
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but that's you don't want it you don't
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want to be interacting with a girl
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bottom I think it's sweet unless it's a
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babble this is the thing this is the
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thing boy bottoms I mean it in a fraught
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power exchange no no I gotta get a girl
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bottom there's also a bottom that's also
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in as part of the mix down there like an
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actual bottom hang on what yeah you're
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right the beep the UH the the word so
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for a while I was like look the word
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is it's a nice word it's a sweet word it
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means like a kitty cat yeah it's like a
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sweet little it's it's so much better
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than the other words can I just at least
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eliminate the confusion in my own
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universe by just using that word we'll
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just that's it's a fine word I don't
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mean anything bad by it it's just like
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it just seems sweeter and I'd like to
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refer to that part of your body let's
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say I'm saying to someone as an
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introduction like hey now that we're
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getting close let's work on so what's
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the secondary yeah um and I encountered
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quite a bit of uh like about the word
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pussy which seemed very sweet but but at
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least to people I know it's like sounds
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it's cringy and I'm like at the same
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time it is a word that many women I know
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would use to privately refer to their
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girl bottom mmm-hmm I'd say more so than
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twat well I don't think anybody use this
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twat unless you're a policeman yeah
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clean out our twats so get so many
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letters from what from the from the
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McElroy brothers you know not all West
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Virginians ha ha but you know like I'd I
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can't use the word dick with a straight
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face because it just I don't know it
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passed on to the other so that's like
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that's like a word ass like it that's
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now a term of art dick I mean it's
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somebody who behaves like a dick oh I
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see what you're saying you know well
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don't be an ass I use that I use it that
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way but has come a long way but but bu
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TT mm-hmm that's another very tricky
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thing because everybody thinks about
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their butt right everybody's got a thing
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some thoughts about their own butt yeah
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and it's unclear who wants what aspect
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of their butt well who wants
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attention call - what aspect of their
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own but like oh I'm so glad you brought
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this up yeah I really really am because
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I think I think you can run into some
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real danger zones if you're not fairly
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specific about what you mean what we
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talk about when we talk about butts I
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think you can say you have a nice butt
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which in that case might mean that the
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shape of your posterior looks good in
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right I mean I think everyone at a base
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level wants to hear that they have a
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nice butt oh yeah yeah if you're getting
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intimate with somebody to say just
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casually sometime like not you know like
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you can say it in the in the boudoir but
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even if you're just like out on the town
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and you've been dating for a while you
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know to lean over and say like you know
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what you've got a really nice butt that
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will I think 40 years later that will
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still be in their mind room that's a
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really nice thing you said one time my
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favorite mind room in their mind house
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yeah that is a that's a freaking oil
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painting over the fireplace of their
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mind house right like my other once said
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that you know just sort of like off hand
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you have a really nice butt I got a
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compliment
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along those lines having to do with with
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the with the swimsuit area I got a
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compliment in 1986 that I still think
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about yeah isn't that nice it's just
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you're right I know well paying in my
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mind house it was I was like what would
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have put a nice thing to say and she
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said in a way that didn't feel forced it
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was very it seemed like she she offered
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it freely and of her own accord just in
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passing and I still think about that was
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those a long time ago that's what 30
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years ago yeah I mean that's the key I
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was walking with my girlfriend one time
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in a group of guys a group of all my
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friends and we're kind of bringing up
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the rear if you will and and we're on
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the way down to the bar we're going to
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the NAR Tavern and there's you know six
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guys ahead of us and we're walking along
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and she just sort of casually under her
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breath says you know like six guys I'm
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not a single good but
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and I was like whoa it had not occurred
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to me that that she was looking at you
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know and she was casual remark yeah but
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I looked ahead and I was like okay
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alright so looking at these six butts
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none of them are good okay okay
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memorize this memorize these butts and
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understand that these do not these are
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not goodbye so you went into Terminator
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heads-up mode at this point like you're
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just gathering information about this
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new environment that you would later use
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you're like an AI John you're gay I know
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this this corpus of information to have
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to apply in other circumstances looking
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at these six guys ahead of us I would
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have made a lot of assessments right
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like oh this is a bunch of that you know
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like this is a bunch of ding-a-lings or
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none of these guys has any fashion sense
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or you know whatever look like a bunch
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of soccer players or whatever but I
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would not have said that's gotta be up
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there with is this your first day soccer
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play what are you a bunch of soccer
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buddy hey hey soccer player keep driving
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but once you put a soccer on your head
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and play but I but now yeah she had
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given me this whole new field of
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information to consider which was six
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guys not a nice button in the bunch and
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you know and of course the next nation
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rich sentence yeah and here are levels
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I'm the seventh guy right and she's
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walking next to me she if I was up there
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with those soccer players would she be
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like there's one nice but in the group
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or what it were or would there be sort
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of a blanket like I mean it and at a
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certain point if you're in if you're in
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a crowd of six guys with not a nice but
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how nice does your bud have to be to
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stand out yeah yeah you know like is if
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your butt is being assessed in all by
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itself it might be like yeah it's a nice
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butt huh
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but if you're in a group of bad butts
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yeah oh you get lumped in with them
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interesting okay yeah so so uh so that's
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the type of thing like the but if you go
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any deeper into
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a into like what you like about
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someone's but it gets tricky right away
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boy does it ever oh there's just levels
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and levels it's it's a minefield the but
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it's really tricky and particularly now
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like the the the fashion for the
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millenniums is these high-waisted jeans
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that we wore those were the fashion when
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I was in high school too and they are
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not the most becoming style because they
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look really good on someone who has a
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very pear-shaped bottom but they don't
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really look good on everybody and
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because yet because they're designed for
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like a narrow waist and a sort of very
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curvy you know like if they look they're
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meant to look like a pair mm-hmm
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exaggerated that particular curve do you
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think they go up high like could it be
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to like cover up a lower back tattoo or
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do you think it's mostly to provide a
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certain shape a suggestion of shape good
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question I find them to be in the main
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create less shape than them other pairs
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of jeans because it in the in the early
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focused your attention strictly on the
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butt so that your lower back was not
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engaged and your you know like your even
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your your I mean I guess your your
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thighs are engaged in a sort of general
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but frame mmm-hmm this part the lamb is
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the continuum of the synecdoche or
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metonymy but there's there's a whole lot
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of pieces and parts to talk about here
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so much going on uh-huh but if you if
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the if the jeans were focused strictly
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on making the butt seem high and tight
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which I think was the that was the
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version of like seven jeans or whatever
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that was that 90s 2000s late 90s early
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2000s like gene technology you could
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have a narrow waist or why
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waste you could have a you could be
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hourglass-shaped or you could be square
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and none of that was being the gene was
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not interacting with the rest of your
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body really it was just focused on
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making your bottom look good
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you're just the just the bottom and so
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those genes were very successful and I
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think they're very popular with people
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my generation because we'd been
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struggling always struggling to figure
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out how to make your bottom look good
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and making the maybe classic error of
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thinking that your bottom starts up
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under your arm and how do I make my
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bottom look good when I don't have a
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waist or how do I make my bottom look
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good when I have a high waist or you
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know and all this stuff and it was just
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like oh no these jeans are low waisted
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so they're not trying to be up in your
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back and they just start thinking about
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like how to make your bottom well so now
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we're into these high-waisted jeans and
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the high-waisted jeans are just by their
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very nature they are including your back
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in your bottom hmm there including waist
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in your bottom and they're a lot there's
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now there's a lot more going on and it's
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part of them it's part of normcore I
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feel like I said still a thing well I
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just feel like in general the
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millenniums are less fashion uh they're
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I mean they they fashion still matters
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but they're let they less give a damn
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you know I just I feel like they're a
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lot more free with you know you rep
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whatever you want to rep I agree I think
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there's a lot to admire about the
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millenniums mm but my kids they don't
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Jeff as they say they don't give an F
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but the high waist Regina I think is a
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is an error if I can if I can just be
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like a ghost of Christmas past here
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mm-hmm you don't if if you have a choice
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just leave it unless you are unless you
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really know for a fact that you are one
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of the rare rare individuals you know
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and let in the nineteen seventies you
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have those Gloria Vanderbilt jeans and
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they look bad on everybody except for
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one out of a thousand people if you're
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one of if you know for a fact you're one
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of those
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like yes you can wear anything yes but
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just in general you're not going to find
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happiness I don't think in high-waisted
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jeans I just don't think it's there but
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you know like for instance if you if you
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are somebody who's lette if you ever
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were to say to somebody like you've got
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a really big but I feel like you just
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pulled the pin out of a grenade and
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you're holding it in your hand and
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you're also holding with your other hand
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you're holding on to the edge of a clip
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and you're and your feet are not your
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feet are just swinging the air if you oh
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but the grenade is also tied to a string
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which is tied around your neck so if you
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let go the grenade I was wondering how
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you pull out the pin if you only have
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one hand do the guy like a sergeant in a
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movie that's right that's right you
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pulled it out pulled out the pin and now
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you're holding the grenade if you let go
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of it in order to grab the cliff wall
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okay then you've got a live grenade tied
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around your neck
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what if you're holding on to the cliff
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by the grenade I don't think you can how
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do you hold on to a cliff with the
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grenade but I've never been in the
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situation about saying it would really
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work for the narratives that maybe maybe
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it's just one little one little bit that
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got stuck on there maybe it's on a root
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right you know I'm saying but your your
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only way your only survival is going to
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be keep holding the grenade that's a lot
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like that's a lot like talking about
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somebody's but I see you went a
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different direction with it I was going
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in the like year there's no way out here
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now I see I see but you were you were
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saying like you're now you're
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permanently lodged on the side of this
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when the clip is made of grenades hold
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it in head maybe if you zoom out far
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enough you realize that the whole cliff
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is a grenade
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maybe the hole maybe the world is
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exhibit is a universe it's not so
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different than like the win are you
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expecting gasps oh that's bad I mean you
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know that the pad the powder that runs
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do all of this I think is like before
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you open your big mouth make sure you
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understand what the play is right
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what yeah I mean I have I have had
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success with the had success with the
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listen within the larger context you
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have a very small but but within the
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context of small buts you have a nice
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big putt you understand yeah it's nice
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that you know that did PowerPoint if you
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can get you things you can't explain it
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but if you can create an atmosphere
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where you are able to say you have a big
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butt but it's within the context of
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being of having like a very small but oh
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yeah but I mean couldn't you go with
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something I don't know well see it
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depends on what you're trying to
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embarrass well like comically small not
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like this abling Lisa yeah like you are
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we have you a small bubble within that
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context it's pretty large
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right that was just being a baffling
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depending on what you're trying to
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accomplish
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like if part of what you're trying to
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accomplish is to just pay a pay a
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compliment and walk away which could I
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kill a stranger I don't think you can
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refer to their butt at all just talking
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about people's bodies is dangerous in
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the Big Dance I'm talking strictly
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within the context of somebody that you
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are romantically involved in because you
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should not be commenting on the body of
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anybody else yeah unless you are just
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unless you are strictly like in a
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situation where you are either naked
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with them or on your way to being naked
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with them yeah and in that case and it
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should in that case I think it should
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always be only complimentary that's you
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know until it's like high-waisted jeans
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unless you have a reason I would stick
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with complimentary oh there's no I don't
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think there's any way you can make a
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remark about someone else's body that
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you are sexually gay is that supposed to
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be like that yeah that's good in your
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considered there's so many ways that you
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can offer someone constructive criticism
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but not in their not in their body now
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while they're literally naked one of the
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oil paintings in my uh in my mind house
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which is not over the fireplace it's one
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of those oil paintings that you're like
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do I put this in a bathroom where do I
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put this bat what do I put this oil
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painting but but a girl at college said
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to me it's one of these great
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compliments you have a great body if you
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just did a few sit-ups oh wow that's and
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I was like I have a great body thank you
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if I just did a few sit-ups which I know
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already I knew that I knew that I should
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do some sit-ups
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and ah thank you
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you know like occasion in the
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destructive she meant it
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she was a she but she yeah it sounds
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like consolation like she's consoling
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you like hey fuck up little guy oh no no
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it wasn't that it was that she was
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trying to make me you know like like
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I've dated a lot of she's like Nixon you
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that's right who are trying to shape me
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into they love me
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ninety percent of Who I am is exactly
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what they want
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John John a project sent yeah that's
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right it's the ten percent that's a
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project that's very exciting to them and
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in her case the ten percent was she was
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just going to shape my body a little bit
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just craft it a little bit so that it
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was more to her liking and that involved
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a little bit of sit-ups now at 23 I had
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a dad bod and at 48 I haven't really
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much exactly the same dad Bob so in that
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sense I mean I'm not one of those 48
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year olds that still has a flat stomach
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but it's because I never had a flat
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stomach that single v in my life it's
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just you doing you yeah that's right I'm
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doing I think can I tell somebody I
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think you can tell somebody that they
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have a cute butt okay again they'd
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better be somebody you're dating I do
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not think you can say that to someone on
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the bus or so they don't talk about
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bodies at all John with anybody ever
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oh dude this is all just speculative I
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could not imagine saying any of these
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words to people to like the to the clear
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secretary to my second at your office
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look Janice no Janice committed which
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will give me a twirl
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haha working nine to five yep cut about
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you have kind of a big ass Janice Irene
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was in the context of having a small I
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think I'm a big one get back to that
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dictation if someone said to me you have
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a cute butt and and I have heard it over
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the years but not and that's what are
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you to work that in I had a feeling that
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was coming that's one of your smaller
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oil paintings but not enough times that
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I believe it you know what I mean like
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you know something was said universally
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I would be like gee that's one of the
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things that I know of
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myself like universally women have said
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that I have good legs
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everyone is that right yeah and so I
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believe it uh-huh because because
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unbidden yeah it's just one of those
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offhand comments like you know what
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you're good legs
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I heard back I feel like you could think
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about you can think about your life and
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what to believe in your life a little
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bit like like my daughter was recently
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looking at some of my old yearbooks and
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from like like junior high and so many
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of the things people wrote in my
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yearbook are nearly identical and taken
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as a whole they form a certain truth
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that I could I could choose today sweet
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well I could choose not we'll see stay
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sweet even that you get enough of those
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that mean something like this that's not
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people filling up a whole page with that
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time we made out at the roller rink
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most of them many of them are uh you're
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you're weird but cool you're weird but
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cool you're weird but nice you're weird
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but smart and the thing is that the
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consistency to too many of these remarks
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is that I am weird
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that is the characteristic if you were
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to put these into Excel what would
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emerge is that in when I was 14 I was
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weird and everyone said so right so in
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that case I feel like that is whether I
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like that or not or feel that's
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distinctive or not the point is that's
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the people speaking I heard that enough
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noun open set in there you know and you
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have sexy legs that was never an item
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touch like right I could choose that
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again I don't know if it's a synecdoche
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arm autonomy or making things up but I
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could just choose to believe that about
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myself but I have not heard that often
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enough that I think it's meaningful but
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you have you've heard about your legs if
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you look at my yearbook I think the I
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think what you would put together over
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the overall the comments it would be you
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were a bastard to me for four years but
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for some reason everyone likes you still
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good luck and this continues now on
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Facebook right don't get remarks from
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people I think I hear still such an
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asshole yeah you were absolutely
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terrible to me but for some reason I
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could never hate you
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this is very confusing I hope I never
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see you again but I also wish you well
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um can forget that girl our license
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plate back yeah I did we're friends now
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um I feel like when I first met you and
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when I would look at pictures of you
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particularly
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particularly
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early pictures of you when you were in
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college I my feeling was that Merlin man
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was a very handsome guy and I have heard
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several my friends have said this i
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don't i don't see it i think i think
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yeah i appreciate you saying that that
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was your impression at the time uh well
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you know the thing is you had feel like
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you've aged well you have a kind of but
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you know you have aged into a very like
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appropriately interesting looking middle
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aged man it's tough that you know you
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have not fallen apart as well you know
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there's always taught you like become
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him more intensely I'm coming you I'm if
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I were casting a catalog yeah a modeling
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session like you'd be one of the type of
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people that I would think like could
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sell sell things still just with your
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face Wow and that's not you know a lot
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of people like there they face falls
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apart um and it's just it's just that
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God it's just what God chooses you know
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it's not like it's not that for any for
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any particular reason but I always felt
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like you were handsome and did not
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believe it did not know it or believe it
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such that you never really capitalized
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on your handsomeness you say anything is
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this your is this your setup statement
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for me like I could have been
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good-looking if I like clean myself up a
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little bit probably no no no it wasn't
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that at all because you know I'll I I
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think dirty is handsome no it was that
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you didn't believe that you were
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handsome so you never exploited it he
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never went into a situation where you
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where you please said well I'm handsome
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that's all I'm gonna I'm gonna pull this
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off because I'm handsome right yeah you
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always you always carried yourself as
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though the last thing you were the last
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thing you believed was that you were
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handsome or at least it wasn't like a
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primary that's a that's a good
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conclusion yeah yeah yeah yeah I think
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for me I did not think I was handsome it
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was clear I wasn't I was because I was
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under I was undercooked
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but at a certain point like a scallop I
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did but at a certain point I think I
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grew into my looks enough that now I
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bamboozled people because I have
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dramatic yeah charismatic right which is
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you know which is this which is another
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kind of awful comment now a really
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really nice personality
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yeah body room clothes good cook actly
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exactly this is the thing type of thing
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that my friend's parents said to me in
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high school you know you're gonna grow
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into your looks you're you're you're
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very handsome ah in the sense that it as
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an adult you will be handsome the things
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people say to other people yeah where
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you're just like yeah I was trying to be
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helper for I would have preferred to be
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like cute in high school but I guess
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that wasn't what that wasn't my fate
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like I was so we played a show the other
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day and we got this three guys from my
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high school showed up and you know three
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guys that had never seen me play
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actually one guy wasn't from my high
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school he was from my ski team but he
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was you know within Anchorage
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if you were on the ski team by which I
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mean initially the Alyeska mighty mites
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and then ultimately graduate to the
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Alyeska junior racers it was not a ski
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team in the sense that we it wasn't like
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a high school ski team where you
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competed against other ski teams it was
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a ski Kolob a ski culture where we you
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competed against one another and then
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the great ones went on to compete
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nationally and then internationally it
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was like it was like a like a like a
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farm club for the for the world and I
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think now in Alaska the high schools
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have ski team downhill ski teams I'm
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talking about they always had
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cross-country teams that competed
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against each other but now I think they
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have downhill teams and it might be a
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club sport like a like a what intramural
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sport yeah but so one of the guys from
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the ski team who went to a different
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high school but he was part of our
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larger gang because he because we were
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all skiers together
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so these three guys came to my came to
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my my rock show and the in particular
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the one that I knew from ski club that
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was not from my high school he looks
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exactly the same he looks the same as he
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did when he was 16 and we're reaching an
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age where that that's strange now when
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that happens it's it's but I mean he
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looks like a man he doesn't he's not
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like he doesn't have a like a like a
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sweet face or something he looks like a
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full-grown adult yeah but he looks he
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looks the same he would be instantly
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identifiable as himself in a way that a
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lot of people my age aren't a lot of
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people I see that are my age and I'm
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like I know you don't I and they're like
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yes we know each other very well and
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then I'm like ah it's you hi you know
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like they've changed considerably he
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just looked exactly like himself and
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what's amazing is that of everybody I
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know he has created exactly the Alaska
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life he's a doctor and I grew up in a
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neighborhood that was close to the
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hospital in the college and most of my
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friends parents were doctors and a lot
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of my friends went on to become doctors
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but they all moved out of Alaska right
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so there a doctor here there a doctor
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there their doctor there and they're
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living some other doctor life some
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Bellingham doctor life or some you know
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California doctor life but he's a doctor
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he has an airplane which he uses all the
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time ski plane in the winter and a flow
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plane in the summer which is very Alaska
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thing to do and he uses that airplane
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both to or I'm sorry he uses it to hunt
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mm-hmm and so he'll post pictures on
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facebook of like we just went out and
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shot this giant elk or this mountain
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sheep or whatever that is that they're
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they're just out like hunting as part of
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one of the things that they do as
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Alaskans or they fly in somewhere and
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catch giant king salmon
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they they also put skis on it and fly
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way up on the side of mountains and
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everybody jumps out and you know and my
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friend then flies the airplane down to
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the bottom of the mountain and everybody
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skis down the mountain and then gets
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back in the airplane and fly back up and
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land on the glacier and do it again like
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this is the life that he is providing
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for his children his teenage kids are
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like let's go skiing dad and they get in
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the airplane and they fly up and land on
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the glacier and ski down like it's a
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it's so Alaskan it just blows me away
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how completely successfully he has
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created this thing that seems almost
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almost fantastical to me now having
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lived in Seattle as long as I have but
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was exactly kind of what that was the
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environment I grew up in right your
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friend's dad had a plane he flew you up
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to their lake cabin and then you went
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waterskiing and then he would fly you up
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on the mountain and drop him it's just
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like what kind of universe okay somebody
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sent me a link to a video the other day
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about this young woman who's like a
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she's a young mother now and she'd been
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an Alpine guide on Mount McKinley for
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many many years and then after she had
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her daughter she felt like being an
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Alpina sk's was no longer I know was no
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longer a safe job because she had a she
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had a little daughter and every time you
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go up on the mountain you risk dying
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it's just the nature of going up on the
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mountain the mountain decides whether
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you get down or not and so up until that
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point she'd been living a life where
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every time you know her job was to go up
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on the side of the mountain and try to
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keep these people that are paying her
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from dying and also as a you know as a
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corollary to that try to keep herself
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from dying but now she's a mom and that
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doesn't feel right so she decided that
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she was going to transfer her energy
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becoming a bush pilot to fly the
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climbers up and land them on the
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mountain and her description of it why
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it's way better is like well every night
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I get to come home and sleep in my own
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bed every morning I get to be up at
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14,000 feet on the side of this mountain
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why uh you know like dropping climbers
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off up there and then I get to fly home
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and go to bed in my little house in
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Talkeetna and I was watching this and
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just like Jesus this is this is totally
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another version of this same weird
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Alaskan life but when I was a kid it was
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always the grown-ups doing it now I'm
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watching this video this to me she still
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reads as a young woman right she's
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younger than I am she's like a young
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mother and she and she's like this -
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Havilland beaver and land hit on the
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side of the freaking mountain and she's
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flying with her little daughter it's
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super cute like - there's a shot where
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they're in a they're in a little cub and
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they're taking off and her little
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four-year-old is in the backseat like
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the Sun is in my eyes and one of the
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things about being in an airplane is
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that uh there aren't in a small plane
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that you don't have window shades mm-hmm
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you want a lot of windows because you
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feels weird it feels weird to watch
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those videos would be like ah my pals
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are up there just you know fly
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gonna be very muscular it sounds like a
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very muscular lifestyle it doesn't feel
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like that to them because they they feel
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like the plane is a necessary tool it's
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just like learning to drive a car if you
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want to get up there where things are
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interesting then that's what you need
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things are interesting because once
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you've skied up in the glacier why do
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all day why not fire the plane up and go
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skip the real pal pal you go right I
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could have known it's it's so utterly
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foreign to me I mean all these different
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modes of transportation and leaving the
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house so often it's all very very
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foreign to me
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yeah leaving the house with the
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expectation that all day long you're
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going to be putting in effort it's not
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easy to get the plane going and get it
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up into the and fly up into the
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mountains like it's tough I just sort
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was so much danger my gosh danger
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okay so let's explore this then you so
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you feel like you she maybe should have
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been a bush pilot no because if I had
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wanted to be a bush pilot I guy
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absolutely could have you know I I stood
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at the I stood at the crossroads I
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looked at the the road of bending off
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into the wood and then took the other as
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just as fair uh I was perfectly
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positioned to be a bush pilot and I just
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felt like oh yeah or I could go ride
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freight trains yeah and the riding
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freight trains felt more interesting
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because being a bush pilot felt somewhat
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men mundane just like going to medical
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school did huh and then having gone and
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years then I followed then I went where
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the day took me and ended up where I am
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because I you know
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Merlin I went where the day took me you
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went with three took you yeah I never
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had a plan I don't know if you did did
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you have a plan uh I mean I had I had
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notions but I never had a plan but I
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think the day the day is a very
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important unit for you
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yeah the day the day is there's
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important patterns to the day in your
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life things like what is the uniform of
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the day right you've gotten these dated
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like reflect like you know might be how
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you slept last night like what we know
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where you have to be the day seems I'm
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not saying you think merely in days but
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the day is a very significant uh
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quantity of time for you yeah yeah I
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approach each day as though it is a new
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well yeah each day is new I didn't so
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for instance yesterday my plan for today
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was to do this podcast with you that was
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the thing that was the tentpole yeah for
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the first that was the reason I was
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going to get up in the morning was to do
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this podcast and then after this I
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immediately had immediately my notion of
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the rest of the day became very vague it
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was like I got to get up I got up to the
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podcast with Merlin now after I'm done
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doing the podcast with Merlin do I get
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dressed well we'll figure that out when
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we get there mmm does that govern partly
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by like what are you getting dressed for
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yeah that's gonna have Lee I mean are
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you gonna wear like something we can go
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out into the bush arm you know do I even
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need to if I don't need to get dressed
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why go through the whole rigmarole
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that's true
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am I gonna play guitar tomorrow could be
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now - that's a pretty good idea put on
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your guitar pants baby no no you don't
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need pants for guitar
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that's a sanitary you put a napkin or
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something the thing is I'm not gonna
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that guitar it's not like I'm gonna hand
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it to somebody else
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sometime and be like here play my play
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the guitar that I was playing by me my
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my nakedness but yeah but I do feel like
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a lot of people in life had not just
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like more of a plan than I did
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that they had a real plan that they had
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a plan this is why I was that I was
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trying to differentiate between like
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having a guess or a reckon there are
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people who really had a plan and buy
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which is like we're talking about here
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like you're the red hair girl in my
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going to you know medical school and
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stuff people where there are
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dependencies to what you're going to do
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there's time commitment
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there is stick-to-itiveness and grit and
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with those kinds of people a funny side
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effect is that those are often the kind
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of people that if the plan goes wrong
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they very quickly have another plan
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they're ready to stick to I think there
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are plan people but butcher land people
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are executing on the plan not merely
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ruminating about the plan that's the
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difference between them and me I feel
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like the danger for me of a plan was
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always that well the you know the plan
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can go sideways right away so like you
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know if you want to make God laugh right
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Woody Allen's famous lines you want to
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make God laugh tell him your plans it's
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a pretty good assessment of where I come
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from although you have to look at Woody
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Allen's accomplishments and say like
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well you had a plan yeah or at least had
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multiple plans every time he started a
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new film it must have been a new plan
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but I am I am maybe one of the more
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planless and and I come up against
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people with a plan all the time people
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ask me questions that suggest that they
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think that I had a plan or that I have
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one now not sorry yes the simplest
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question that people ask you is like
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well what do you want and it presumes
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that I really want anything or that I
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have a particular interest in one or
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another outcome and that is a that's a
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weird presupposition because if today I
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followed the day where it took me and it
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ended up that by the end of the day
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something had something had arrived in
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my life where it made sense for me to
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move to Ankara Turkey I would be in I if
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it made sense for me to do that that
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would that them that has its own logic
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and I would be making prepper
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to move to Ankara uh because it doesn't
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conflict with a plan that I have already
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see I see um and I think there are a lot
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of people that if at the end of the day
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it made sense for them to move Ankara
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they would say what no it mean it
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doesn't make sense absolutely no
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conflicts with my plan it makes it
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completion to plan yeah that's right and
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and the only reason I haven't made it
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made like the decision to move to Turkey
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at any point in my life is that at the
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end of every day it never made sense and
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I and I never made it my plan but it is
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it's very different because I'm because
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confronted with the question what do you
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want my answer is always like the best
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or most sensible option of those
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presented and that doesn't satisfy some
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kinds of parts to it I mean I'm
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projecting here which is all I really
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can do but I think again it's important
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to distinguish between a plan which has
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several aspects to it that are important
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and then versus having something like a
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lightly structured sense of hope about
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how things will go that feels like a
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plan but it's not really a plan that's
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it that's an intransitive plan like
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where you're kind of like mostly hoping
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things turn out a certain way if I stay
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at this job long enough surely I will
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make more money and get promoted that's
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maybe a silly example but I think it's a
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common example right like if I get the
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security of having a job plus it just
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seems reasonable that I will move up and
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make more money here well it's not
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that's not exactly a plan if your plan
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requires you not changing very much or
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doing things by a certain time it's not
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really a plan it's it's I mean it's just
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doing stuff yeah I feel like you are
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really you got to the core of it really
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fast and I think would it this is a
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weird thing I've discovered just very
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recently in in like examining the
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choices that I make
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and it maybe relies on optimism like I
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never would have thought of myself as
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optimistic because I thought because I'm
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you know a trend toward thinking darkly
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thinking darkly about myself thinking
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darkly about the you know the
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contemporary world thinking darkly about
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human interaction with one another like
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I'm I'm I tend to be not misanthropic
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but certainly I have my suspicions about
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other people you're human agnostic a
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human agnostic right I've just you know
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like life is definitely somewhat of a
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scramble and I embrace it but what I
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what I realized recently is that I am an
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optimist in that I wake up every morning
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and assume everything is going to sort
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of just roll like when I get in the car
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and start the engine and imagine making
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the trip to wherever it is that I'm I'm
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going I don't have was that a was that
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little toot premiere and he probably
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didn't hear that that was the train
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going by and they didn't like what
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somebody was doing on the road so they
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give a little sometimes they give a
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little toot to out front okay you know
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Mike is gonna prevent that showing up
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but it's what I the day sort of unwinds
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the way that it does you've got a
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general to check three through the day
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well I mean I know that I have to be
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certain places at certain times but I am
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i planning consists of when i have to be
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somewhere at a certain time mostly yeah
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but i'm operating on the assumption that
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I'm gonna get in the car and I'm going
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to drive to where I'm going and that
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drive is going to be largely event free
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I don't assume someone is going to cut
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I'm not afraid that I'm gonna get into a
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I don't worry about getting there you
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know like late I'm not worried about
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getting lost you know all of those
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anxieties about what's going to happen
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in the in the immediate future and in
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the long-term future I just don't have I
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assumed that everything is probably
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is actually a kind of optimism
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that I bring to two events I assume you
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know when people like people said when
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my daughter was born her mother said
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like it's gonna cost her a million
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dollars a year to go to college what are
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we gonna do we should have been saving
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money this whole time and my and I was
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just stunned by this because my feeling
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was all what she needs to go to college
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when it's time to go to college we find
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she'll go to college there'll be some
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solution to the problem and that has
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that has been my attitude throughout my
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entire life and and and it is you know
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like I know that there are listeners
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right now who love who love it love love
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that I have arrived here where I can now
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make a statement about privilege and now
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having made that statement like it is
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also a like and maybe my optimism is
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also a function of privilege because
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that is the lens through which a lot of
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people want to look at everything now
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but I I also feel like there are a lot
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of people whose nature like they have
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just as much privilege as I do in the
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world but their nature compels them to
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be anxious about all these things that
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they can't control the drive the other
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drivers the whether or not they're you
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know whether or not things are going to
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go well all day they're anxious about
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them and that anxiety makes choices for
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them and their uh and and so the plan
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helps alleviate that anxiety because
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they know you know that there are steps
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to follow and if the if something goes
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sideways you know you just get get on to
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the next step you follow the you follow
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the plan and so I'm I am at liberty and
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a lot of the Liberty I guess that that I
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have or that people perceive in me is I
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think rooted in in that like spiritual
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confidence that it's going to turn out
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even if I have a heart attack and die
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tomorrow
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that's fine it's a it's all going to
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work out my daughter's going to be fine
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somebody's gonna have to go through all
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this stuff but that's I mean it'll
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probably be my mom and she'll just put
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it all into the dumper yeah just been at
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all if like 20 like 25 pairs of vintage
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Levi's that have holes in the knees she
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doesn't see the value in them yeah
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nicely doesn't recognize that there's a
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lot of value there and that's fine yeah
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I sometimes wonder if the absence of
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anxiety feels like optimism we're like
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you know it's funny because like you
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know we tend to think in these sort of
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um sort of looking for like Hegelian I
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guess sorts of ways I don't know like
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which I always see like the two sides
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just bicameral approach to life and are
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you not the minister are you a pessimist
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it's like well you know that's really
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very very general you know but as
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somebody who is anxious about lots of
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things I sometimes wonder if to repeat
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myself if if what if not having anxiety
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is what optimism feels like yeah or
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maybe there isn't a distinction between
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those things well there's a certain kind
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of and I'm sorry to keep using this this
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word that is a term of art and I not
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going to be able list but there is a
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certain kind of mania to optimism that
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I'm very suspicious of like people who
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are too optimistic or people who are too
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happy are very suspicious to me they
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just seem like they're up to something
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or they're just not wired right like how
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are you like this all that and there are
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some people who are just charming and
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that's just their personality and
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they're not somebody who you know again
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the absence of something makes you seem
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like it's a thing like you just people
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who don't bitch about everything people
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who aren't snarky people who don't talk
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behind other people's backs and stuff
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like that you know I mean that's that's
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a nice you know kind of a person I don't
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know if that makes them still an
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optimist but so I guess one version of
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optimism is that you tend to see the
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positive side of a situation that you
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tend to assume that things will go well
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rather than
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that you have a kind of rosy prospect
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about a given situation or the future in
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general yeah and all the seems to an
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opposite of pessimism means that roughly
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fair to say um pessimist tends to look
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at to pick nits with the negative side
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of things they tend to assume that given
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all the things being equal things will
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probably get worse
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yeah no that's that that doesn't
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describe me at all it's the it's the
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other thing
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yeah and that but I but I'm not a
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Pollyanna right I don't think I either
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like what if or what if you haven't
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liked it I don't know I just this kinds
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of like polar things are so that's such
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a blunt instrument right it is but it
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it's very I mean you there there needs
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to be a way to describe um because
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because it's because it's one of those
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like is the green that you see the same
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green that I see right um you know if
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you're having a conversation with
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somebody about something that you're
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undertaking and they honestly feel like
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the chances of it failing are much
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greater than the chances of it
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succeeding and you feel the opposite and
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those are just sort of native feelings
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not based on the actual facts of the of
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the moment but rather the intrinsic
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interpretation of what those facts mean
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you know like we don't have enough money
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to do this but it's going to be fine
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we'll find the money or we don't know
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something likes maybe if you're a
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entrepreneurial type and you're somebody
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who wants to start a Patino
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theoretically potentially very
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profitable high value company in some
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kind of an industry that is risky or
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costly to get into but if you're that
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sort of person and you decide to start a
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company like that and then hue to a
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developing but still very
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well-thought-out plan like if you have a
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plan for what you're going to do like no
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does that make you an optimist or a
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pessimist because they're people
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everybody says well obviously that
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person's an op
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because they think they're going to be
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that rare person who's able to pull off
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success in this thing that's very
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difficult to do and I would say that
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another person might say well no they're
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probably a pessimist because they
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realize that in order to get the things
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they want they have to have a
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contingency plan and risk management
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that gets them where they want to go
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without assuming that everything will go
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perfect so I don't know if either one of
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those labels really fits in that
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situation I don't know I mean there are
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companies right that that began that
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process and then somewhere down the road
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in their development they realized that
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what the product what they thought the
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product was isn't the product right what
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they discover is that the thing that
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they were making in order to make the
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product was the actual product and in
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order to be that flexible I think you do
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have to be very I think you have to have
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a rough plan and not a strict plan and
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that and that flexibility which isn't
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true of most startups I guess is the
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thing that that you know would describe
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my approach which is like you get in
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there and it's when we were making you
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know it thought we were making straw
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hats but it turns out we're making the
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framework to make straw hats because
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that's what the world really needs you
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know with now we can sell that right and
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that's interesting nothing but I'm not
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being so so wrapped up in your plan that
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you lose track of not only like whether
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it's working that we expect it but that
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you know there are things that you
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should be picking up about how to as I
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say pivot what you're doing yeah and I
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think I think it is a question of is
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your plan something that you put in
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place in order to dispel fear or is your
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plan a thing that you put in place in
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order to limit uh either let either put
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like artificial limitations on what
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you're doing in order to keep focused or
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limit the amount of chaos they can
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intrude but I really do think there's a
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difference because because you know
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there are a lot
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plans out there that are just to shore
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up um the number of you know of
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different like paralyzing anxieties
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right like like great um and to plan
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like almost like a form of OCD a little
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bit yeah like I've got this I've got a
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plan and therefore like it you know I
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cannot be I don't I cannot know all the
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things that are going to happen but I
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know that I'm not going to kids get
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derailed this way because I have a plan
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to to account for it and my problem
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being plan list is that I'm derailed by
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I mean I'm literally drilled by
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everything not literally I I often get
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to the door of my own room
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reach for the doorknob and then take
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another look at the doorknob and go huh
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interesting I never in all the years
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noticed that about this doorknob and
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then I then my next thought is I should
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get a tool and start to work on that
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doorknob I can't believe you're saying
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this because because just this morning I
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was putting my shoes on I was sitting on
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the side of my bed and I noticed a part
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of my house I never noticed before and I
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became a little bit in trance because
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I'd never paid any attention to the area
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between where these two doors are and I
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was just looking at it think I've never
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really looked at this I've never really
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looked at the nails in the paneling I've
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never really noticed like you know and I
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felt it felt very strange it felt like
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something from West world you know we're
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like you know it doesn't look anything
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to me like I certainly look a this is a
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very minor part of my house that I've
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never given any thought to and that's no
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door always been there are there gnomes
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coming in and they're not my own
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perception so much now there's a there's
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a quote that I have quoted many many
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times and I just took the time to
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actually look it up and I want to
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provide it in full for once this is
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actually a quote that is an actual thing
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that was actually said by an actual
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person that was not Mark Twain this is
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um very happily Abraham Lincoln yeah you
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got Carl Sandburg now this is a
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Eisenhower in 1957 I tell the story to
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illustrate the truth of the statement I
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heard long ago in the army plans are
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worthless but planning is
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everything there's a very great
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distinction because when you are
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planning for an emergency you must start
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with this one thing the very definition
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of emergency is that it is unexpected
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therefore it is not going to happen in
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the way that you are planning plans are
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worthless but planning is everything
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what a great quote yeah yes and that is
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what's missing for me I do not have
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plans and that is what makes me feel
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that I'm at Liberty gets more applicant
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on that I think you're nominated you're
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more complicated than that because it
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isn't that you like a plan it seems to
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me but you have a nine sensation that
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you're not sure what you want that
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destination to be to even plan for yeah
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we like that in which which if true I
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said he can't you can't just have a plan
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to just you know what you could I mean
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you can sit around and move you know
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make Thomas train tracks all day long
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but like ordinarily you would think of a
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plan as something that you execute in
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the service of a given goal over time
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with a given budget least as a project
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management that manager that's how I
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would think about it yeah well so for
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instance about five years ago six years
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ago I was standing around with my mom
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whose very plan oriented and she said
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look here's a plan for you why don't you
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why don't you just decide to make a
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million dollars like you have made money
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and bursts before that in ways that
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suggests that you would be able to make
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a million dollars if you set your mind
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to it because you do you throw some
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stuff off and then some money comes and
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then you live on it for a while and then
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when it runs out you're like oh shit I
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should do something and you do something
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else you toss something else off and
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then you know and money comes in for a
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while but what if you decided that your
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number one plan was just to make
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$1,000,000 that's it like you would just
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do whatever it took to do this to make
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this $1,000,000 and then you would have
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1 million dollars and after that you
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could say that that was the goal you'd
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accomplished and you could do whatever
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the hell you wanted but you would have
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this million dollars
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and I said huh interesting and I went
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around and I chewed on that for a while
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like that seems like a that is an
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example of a plan that doesn't restrict
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me very much you know it just gives me a
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reason it's not a plan or a goal I guess
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it's a goal I guess it's a goal like
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that is that our goal might be to land a
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man on the moon and bring him home
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safely within the next nine years that's
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a goal that the plan to get that to
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happen is a pretty different animal yeah
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right and but but but the goal would
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then would then necessitate various
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plans right I would have to yeah what is
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this not a lot ends a lot of outs a lot
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of what-have-yous if you want to make a
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million dollars you probably gonna have
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to do some things you know again you
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gotta move so it's like having a baby
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when you're 40 you have to move some
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things or yeah upstairs Downstairs
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change a little bit about your about
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your budgeting and invoicing system you
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figure out a way to make a million
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dollars you start planning the things
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that you're gonna buy right I mean it's
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a lot do you you probably want to write
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it down maybe get a legal pad I think I
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think you would I mean I think in my
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case what what she was trying to do is
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she said you've got all these projects
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but the all you have is the only reason
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you would complete any one of those
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projects right now is just to have the
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satisfaction of having created a project
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and yet you get it seems like equal
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satisfaction by just staring at a
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doorknob all day like it doesn't seem to
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be more gratifying to you to complete a
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record album than it does to just sit
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with it like the other day I got down on
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my hands and knees at my dishwasher and
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I took two toothpicks and I cleaned all
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the little nozzles of my dishwasher out
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two toothpicks I was there for you know
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for half the day just humming along putt
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putt sounds very meditative yeah I was
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making I was having success I was
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successfully clean the dishwasher works
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better now nice and I and I felt like
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using the toothpicks as tools was also
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like this is fun I bet that's a that's a
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that's a thought technology yeah I could
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have found other tools but these are the
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tools that I found you go to war with
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the tools you have yes map tools you
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want as Abraham Lincoln said and she
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said you know she said it if if
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completing like a large-scale project
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doesn't really scratch any hitch in you
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that's any different than just waking up
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in the morning and saying you know what
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I'm gonna do today I'm gonna wear all
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pink she said you'll never get any of
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these things done what if the what if
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the overarching thing was not finished
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this project for its own sake but
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finished this project as part of this
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larger project very simple one-sentence
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project make a million dollars right and
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and it was the first kind of
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over-the-top overlay that I'd had in a
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long long time and I think the only
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other one that I ever had was one that I
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got when I was 16 or something that was
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just like be famous and a very big man
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on campus that's right big man on campus
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he ran out on the blotter rotted wrote
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it on the blotter and then everything I
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did that year was under this Lake does
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this help me be the big man on campus
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yeah I think it does like every I mean
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even sitting and monkeying with this
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doorknob is part of that I get I guess
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but since that time I didn't I never had
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another like uh I never had another tall
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flag I just had I just had a forest of
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small flags so I have not still fully
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embraced they like to make a million
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dollars a million of them that's a
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that's a lot of dollars I said it's a
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very clear metric yeah and and the
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reason my mom said a million dollars is
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that she has this she does this social
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she had this lifelong thing she said to
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me at one point your father spent his
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whole life thinking that success was to
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have $50,000 in the bank if you had
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50,000 on $50,000 metal
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not something else in 1964 paid up on
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everything and that that was free and
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yeah yep you had 50,000 bucks in the
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bank in it if you had that it was smooth
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sailing from then on and she said in his
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entire life you net he never ever ever
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had $50,000 in the bank and he just
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couldn't put it together because as soon
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as he had some money in the bank he
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spent it on something he was like oh
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shit you know I'm gonna buy a boat or
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whatever and it was just like no just
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stop just keep doing your $50,000 in the
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bank thing and so in my mom's mind if
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you had a million million dollars and
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didn't tell a soul
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he wouldn't say nothing about it to no
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one because as soon as they see it there
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your money gets stole hmm no her idea
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was that if you had a million dollars
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you could live on the interest sure you
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become like their own endowment yeah you
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get 5% interest you get $50,000 a year
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and free money and then that becomes
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like the fear foundation and so you
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never touch the you never touch the
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million dollars you just get this steady
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sort of five six percent interest you
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you know and and I think she originally
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conceived of this plan back when there
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was like the interest rate was 14% I
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could see yourself a certificate of
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deposit Yeah right
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right you know you buy some bond some
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t-bills whatever that's our and and
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through and in her logic in her mind if
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you had 1 million dollars which to a lot
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of people nowadays even people that do
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not have anywhere close to any of that
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kind of money but but when we imagine
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being wealthy yeah a million dollars
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doesn't seem like wealthy now it's you
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know they're you can't buy a house in
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Seattle for less than six hundred
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thousand dollars now yeah but 1 million
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dollars actually represents like you
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could live on that the rest of your life
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or it could it could certainly keep you
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comforts of your life some some
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right right I mean certainly if you move
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to Thailand or something
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Thailand yeah but even living in even if
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I had a million dollar Steichen continue
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to do this make podcasts and put out
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records every 10 years I would have to
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be I would have to put out a record I
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think in order to accomplish making a
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million dollars now should be listen
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okay you write that down put that put
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that in the legal pad that should be
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part of the plan make a record that's
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part of the plan make a record and and
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find a way you know Ted Leo just got a
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hundred and sixty thousand dollars in a
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Kickstarter for his record which I just
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decided that yeah that's why I didn't I
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did the the the Jonathan think to his
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records already done
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he made it at home like the hundred
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sixty thousand dollars is part of
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putting the record out and it's also
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just like paying him for the record this
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is a distinction I had not heard put
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this I'm so out of the loop I hadn't
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heard the distinction made until this
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week who was talking about this
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oh hello internet podcast talking about
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the difference between and I forgive me
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if I'm mangling this but basically the
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distinction between being a consumer of
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the product and a funder of the
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production which i think is such an
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interesting distinction because like
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obviously historically you've been you
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voted with your wallet by buying the
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finished product but that the on the
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model today is much more along the lines
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of well maybe a much smaller but more
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generous group of people it is hoped
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will fund the production of whatever it
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is you want to make that's where you get
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into stuff like patreon things like that
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interesting I mean I that sounds dumb
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and obvious but like that's a pretty
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different distinction rather than well
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gosh I sure hope the economy for how you
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get paid for streaming vastly improves
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in the next 10 years I mean it's
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completely novel to us but when I look
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at the money that I made from any given
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album just in terms of album sales like
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I was thinking you know I we played this
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show the other day which was a fun show
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and inevitably as you as you do you put
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something like that on the internet and
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then you get 500 comments from people
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like come play s in Germany right it's
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been years since it's been years since
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you played
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fucking you know uh like worms gets it
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comes from you comes from it comes from
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such a nice and such a generous place
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but it's still all I can do not to
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respond to that with a little bit of
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snark not to be mean because and that's
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why I don't say it I don't want to be
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mean but when I say hey we're having a
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comic meetup you know near my house in
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on this doesn't such day people say oh
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you should come to warms bottom West
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things sure welcome to Wiesbaden I'll do
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dust dust comic Klein of dust meter sure
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I'll do that let me just put that on my
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let me just dumping yeah yeah let me
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just let me get somebody else to take of
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my daughter every afternoon for the next
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ten days oh I'll just have my wife do
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that she she has a big lady job where
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she goes in office but I'll say honey
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here's the things I'm wanted I've
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received the Merlin signal has been shot
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into the Gotham City sky I am now needed
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in Wiesbaden
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I see don't say that except here amongst
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friends but no I mean like you know you
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know what here's the thing anybody who
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wants us to do this podcast where they
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live we will totally do that that's
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something like one thing that we ask
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that's right that we not exactly right
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yet in order to do it is not super
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complicated well and that is what that's
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what's crazy if I look at the money of
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because I toured extensively right and
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there were a lot and a lot of times I
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did go to Wiesbaden and then came home
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at the end of six weeks and after I paid
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everybody I had made two thousand
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dollars right and it was like ah look
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you know that you're like you become
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your own company store right you're
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paying from the infrastructure of doing
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all that you're you're funny it out of
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your pocket up front hoping nothing goes
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wrong hoping the van doesn't explode
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right right and and you're doing it
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or you're doing it because the promise
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you know you are being promised by a you
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know by a system that if you do that
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enough that you the word will get out
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and you will and then the and then you
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will make $1,000,000 something good in
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life to not count on too many promises
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that come to you via a system a system
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right so for six years I went out and I
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went to Muenster and I went to Dresden
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and I played my songs for the people in
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those places that came to hear them and
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we had a wonderful time together and it
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was awesome and I ate a lot of pretzels
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and I ate a lot of sausages with mustard
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on them and I made really good friends
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in those places and I loved to see all
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those things and feel like a citizen of
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the world but at the end of the day if I
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played one show in Seattle I made more
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money than that entire tour and so I
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truly was being paid in experience which
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is a thing that gets old after a while
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uh you can't you can't actually can't go
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to the bank and cash exposure no and
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even if even if you take all of our
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American tours by the end of our long
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career as a touring band not the longest
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career but you know uh ten years of it
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uh the shows that we played in Chicago
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as well not even Boston but yeah kind of
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Boston Chicago Boston New York uh West
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Virginia
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Austin LA San Francisco and Seattle they
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were the shows and everything else even
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even when we got to a point where we
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were getting paid pretty well for an
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indie band everything else was fucking
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gas money and if we had just if we had
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just gotten in an airplane and flown to
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those five two to eight cities and
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played our shows oh we probably would
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have made a big bout the same because
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flying there spending one night in a
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hotel and coming home is the same as
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spending three days try
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there and rains but and that's and
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that's what the the presidents were able
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to do at scale right was that whole like
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drop in for a Saturday night show with a
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really big audience
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yeah the presidents could fly to
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Stockholm make $40,000 and fly home and
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to them you know does what it was
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basically was we're going to spend 30
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hours doing this and for 30 hours we
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each get fifteen thousand dollars so uh
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ready go
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and even that ended up being too much
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work for for them you know they were
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just like now that's that's 30 hours
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that I'd rather spend doing something
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else and we didn't you know we didn't
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have that option we had to do those
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shows but it but it's true of my record
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sales too if you look at the record
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sales over the course when I pretend to
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fall came out in 2003 between two that I
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between 2003 and now I have the data to
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say how many dollars that record has
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produced for me in toto all of the
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records I've sold from the first one I
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sold out of the back of the truck to a
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girl in Milwaukee Wisconsin to the you
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know to the download that it probably
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happened today and if you think about
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Kickstarter or patreon and you think
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about the successful versions of that I
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could make that amount of money from
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those funding sources exclusively you
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know if Ted Leo makes 160 thousand
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dollars on his patreon or his uh his bid
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what should I call it his Kickstarter
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that is more money than he would have
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made putting that album out on a label
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and touring it for two years and so you
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go Wow okay
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it truly is if you can do a successful
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one I mean in the end the terror is that
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I would put up a Kickstarter for my new
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album and then make eleven thousand
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dollars
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and then it would be like okay I guess
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selfies at the trunk of my car
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hi ho hi ho yeah right like oh maybe
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that's a got to do another thing to make
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a million dollars but it is it is not
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part of the rules that had to be only
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one thing you're allowed to get there
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right huh yeah
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then it'd be like well yes I gotta write
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a novel whoa another 11 grand okay I'm
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really gonna have to kick it into high
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gear here if I'm gonna make a million
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dollars but but you know this whole
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thing of like for the last 10 years of
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the music business of saying like well
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you know bands really sell t-shirts or
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they really sell kazoos that's what the
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real business model is and you're just
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like no fuck you but now it really is
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possible to make 160 thousand dollars
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just on your Kickstarter and I guess
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that there's some fulfillment
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he asked to do he's promised people that
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he'll come play piano in their living
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room or he's done said midnight I didn't
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follow the Kickstarter very carefully
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but right if they're there it's like at
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the $5,000 level I give you my car yeah
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at the $10,000 level like I will I will
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donate sperm to the to the to the sperm
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bank of your choice or whatever it's a
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nice gesture
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you know what I'll put that in my kicks
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to them put that on the legal pad listen
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well donate sperm the $7 level I will
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give you two vials of sperm and you can
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do whatever you want with them will you
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deliver them personally yeah I'll come
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to your house you can tell I was gonna
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give it to you I'll go into your
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bathroom for 15 minutes yeah and then I
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will give you a coke Campbellsburg
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is your groaning I love my fans
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